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TDS can't find meaning and purpose in life

mrflowers00

mrflowers00

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i've looked into drugs and religion and warfare and they all make great sense to me i feel like i could go deep into any one of these aspects of living and find myself content more so in religion and war than drugs and i just don't know would i be more happy staying on drugs or becoming more religious or even on the other end of things more extreme and fighting for a cause i see as just and killing over what i see as just... idk i feel lost like i don't know what in want in life because i've thought about having my life be about having a family like a lot of people make their lives about but i don't think i want to have a family i already feel like i have too much obligation to the people i love now... ughh...
 
"The greatest adventures and rewards are not those we go to seek."

~ A fortune cookie fortune I keep in my wallet

IME, actively searching for "life's meaning" only underscores one thing: That "life's meaning," as it were, is an elusive concept for each of us. If we keep on keeping on, without actively seeking something to latch on to that represents "purpose," I firmly believe that that which we have yearned for so long for will ultimately find us - often in the least expected way possible.

If there's one thing I've learned about life itself, it is that it constantly surprises me. As the lyrics go, "The more I see, the less I know."
 
Vaya said:
"The more I see, the less I know."
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The more I see, the less I know
The more I'd like to let it go - hey oh, whoa...

this one...or

The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again..

Im sure there are others..
 
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Best way to find the path you need to be on is to get out and keep exploring until you stumble across it.

I'd rather finally find the right path after a long exploration, than think I may have possibly identified the path after a long stagnant contemplation.

How will I know what right for me if I don't know what's out there.

Sitting in one place never got anyone anywhere.. even contemplative thought has to be combined with action to facilitate change.

As life always changes so do we.. look in the journey and forget about some mythical destination.

NSA
 
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High Anxiety said:
The more I see, the less I know
The more I'd like to let it go - hey oh, whoa...

this one...or

The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again..
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I think it was from the former, but the point I was trying to make seems to point towards the message related in the latter quote haha :)
 
i'm more just looking at what can i have as a long term goal in life maybe a simple long term goal could be staying sober idk what i want/need so i just get high
 
staying sober isn't a simple long term goal... thats why we all place it as our number one goal in life or fail to maintain it. You can do it though, just need to start to work at it and give it the respect you need to be able to succeed.. this shit is hard flowers, and i've done allot of hard things.. you can do it.. have you a plan?
 
I dont know what drugs you do. but i felt like you during the darkest point in my heroin addiction. The sad thing is I didnt know how bad i was until i got away from the drug. When i was on it, I didnt care about living or dying, your life or mine, prison or freedom, etc.. I felt like heroin was all i needed. I felt as long as i had heroin i had something to look forward to every day... and i felt if i let heroin go, id just be in an empty meaningless life and thought i would just kill myself. When I got off heroin, I woke up, and realized how shitty life was, and the shocker... i did care about living and dying, and all that other shit.. When i got off i realized that my past 3 years of heavy usage was the reason i couldnt see the world beyond the fog. when i got off that shit, and started having money, and thinking strait i found that there is purpose and happiness in everything! wether its fighting for a cause or serving god!! ill tell you this..quit whatever drugs your doing, and ask your self this same question..i promise you it wont be that mind bending.
 
Set a sober date with me please, only if you are ready. And if your not ready ATM Pm when you are and I'm down.
 
i may have put myself in a situation where all i can do is quit drugs i'm just gonna be in a lot of pain until i can find a doctor to at least treat the bad days
 
Pain, I have discovered, is an intense yet latent state that, more often than not, yields a strengthened (and more effective) self.
 
What you are feeling now can be temporary, and while finding a meaning to your life may seem like the ultimate fix, it will prove as temporary as the feeling that came before it. There is no meaning or purpose in life, but that does not mean it is not worth living. When we long for a meaning or a purpose but do not find one it is painful, tiring, and emotionally draining. When we accept that there need be no purpose we become the masters of our own fate, free to live in the moment for better or for worse.
 
But if you learn to enjoy the journey then this can be more than a temporary fix.. and who know maybe that is a good portion of the meaning of life.. enjoy the journey and experience and learn as much as you can is what I have been rolling with lately.
 
neversickanymore said:
But if you learn to enjoy the journey then this can be more than a temporary fix.. and who know maybe that is a good portion of the meaning of life.. enjoy the journey and experience and learn as much as you can is what I have been rolling with lately.
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I try to roll with that too, but I find that looking for a meaning of life severely hinders my ability to do so, whereas accepting that life is meaningless and absurd frees me to enjoy the moment and roll on much more smoothly.
 
i know what i want in life and it's a very simple life even though i don't believe all of what Buddhism teaches i believe enough to want to become a monk but i have people who rely on me so i can't just leave and do what i please so drugs offer some reprieve for the tediousness of taking care of two old handicapped men even though i myself am handicapped i am young so i am usually in a state of pain that allows me to take care of my dad and g pa but i so just want to walk out the door and fully emerge myself into the Buddhist way of thinking i think the more you have something to do with your life the more complicated it becomes and the more stressful i would love to just eat a bowl of rice tend to a garden and go to sleep after a cup of tea and just meditate for hours on end

i wonder if it'd even be possible to live a double life with two commitments as large and time consuming as those
 
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