psilosara
Bluelighter
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- May 13, 2003
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marijuana - experienced - personal reinvention of high
ok, so this is not a normal report for me but I thought it might be of interest to the rest of you smokers out there. I've been smoking weed for about 5 years and quite regularly for the last year and a half. Living at college gives me the stress and freedom to smoke, but the last few months I've noticed some changes I don't like, for instance memory loss and the inability to express my thoughts at the drop of a hat or without pauses. I've figured out that the social addiction of smoking is the biggest motivational factor to smoke when I'd decided not to - my friends go to smoke, I want to join. Anyway, when they smoke every night, cutting how many days I smoke in half was not working out and I decided to try smoking less per session.
Ok, so per bowl I take a hit. Last night was my fourth night or so of this strategy and I've noticed a few things that have reinforced this practice and reminded me why I love weed. Firstly my mind was clear. I didn't forget things or get paranoid [if i smoke a few bowls per night for a few weeks no matter what the weed I get paranoid, am I alone with this?] and so I was able to have a long and interesting conversation with my father on the phone. I usually *cannot* talk to parents if I'm high because I can't hide it at all =).
Then I made a snack and every movement I made was precise and enjoyable. I was more coordinated than usual and danced around a bit, then swerved around people with what felt like grace. I was in complete control of my senses, while being very aware of them.
I sat down to write a note to my brother, and words came to me sooner and more appropriately than they tend to when I'm sober. I was able to express my thoughts more concisely and that was new. There was a creativity to my writing, that I probably could have applied in other circumstances. I would have loved to be around some paint and paper.
There was no stone detracting from my mood elevation: indeed, i felt energized and giddy. Recently the stone and lethargy I get from smoking a lot of weed has lost it's magic for me, so this was really exciting.
I debated and talked with friends for about five hours, never once losing my train of thought. I felt creative with my arguments and enjoyed an increased feeling of empathy.
The energy is behind what will probably be a continued practice for me. When I tried this, my appreciation for weed returned in that I remembered why I started smoking, replacing my wondering why I do it so much. I got the benefit of the high, some psychedelic but never paranoid thoughts, empathy and a great mood in good humor, and I actually felt more eloquent.
So I don't know exactly how much of a trip report this is, but this experience last night really affected me and I feel like a better smoker because of it. I guess I was in a weed rut. I don't know whether this is a common practice or if my addiction to being there while everyone is smoking is a personal fluke, but taking two hits instead of ten completely reinvented what getting high is for me and seems practically productive, so I wanted to share.
peace
ok, so this is not a normal report for me but I thought it might be of interest to the rest of you smokers out there. I've been smoking weed for about 5 years and quite regularly for the last year and a half. Living at college gives me the stress and freedom to smoke, but the last few months I've noticed some changes I don't like, for instance memory loss and the inability to express my thoughts at the drop of a hat or without pauses. I've figured out that the social addiction of smoking is the biggest motivational factor to smoke when I'd decided not to - my friends go to smoke, I want to join. Anyway, when they smoke every night, cutting how many days I smoke in half was not working out and I decided to try smoking less per session.
Ok, so per bowl I take a hit. Last night was my fourth night or so of this strategy and I've noticed a few things that have reinforced this practice and reminded me why I love weed. Firstly my mind was clear. I didn't forget things or get paranoid [if i smoke a few bowls per night for a few weeks no matter what the weed I get paranoid, am I alone with this?] and so I was able to have a long and interesting conversation with my father on the phone. I usually *cannot* talk to parents if I'm high because I can't hide it at all =).
Then I made a snack and every movement I made was precise and enjoyable. I was more coordinated than usual and danced around a bit, then swerved around people with what felt like grace. I was in complete control of my senses, while being very aware of them.
I sat down to write a note to my brother, and words came to me sooner and more appropriately than they tend to when I'm sober. I was able to express my thoughts more concisely and that was new. There was a creativity to my writing, that I probably could have applied in other circumstances. I would have loved to be around some paint and paper.
There was no stone detracting from my mood elevation: indeed, i felt energized and giddy. Recently the stone and lethargy I get from smoking a lot of weed has lost it's magic for me, so this was really exciting.
I debated and talked with friends for about five hours, never once losing my train of thought. I felt creative with my arguments and enjoyed an increased feeling of empathy.
The energy is behind what will probably be a continued practice for me. When I tried this, my appreciation for weed returned in that I remembered why I started smoking, replacing my wondering why I do it so much. I got the benefit of the high, some psychedelic but never paranoid thoughts, empathy and a great mood in good humor, and I actually felt more eloquent.
So I don't know exactly how much of a trip report this is, but this experience last night really affected me and I feel like a better smoker because of it. I guess I was in a weed rut. I don't know whether this is a common practice or if my addiction to being there while everyone is smoking is a personal fluke, but taking two hits instead of ten completely reinvented what getting high is for me and seems practically productive, so I wanted to share.
peace
