i felt nothing the first couple of times i smoked up, and i was doin everythin right, i was smokin up with some experienced stoners and they got a good high on it, but for me it was nothing.. tho, i was pretty scared and cautious of being caught and looking like an idiot the first couple of times, so my anxiety couldve gotten the best of me.
my first time really getting stoned, and i mean really really stoned, was a few days after my 16th b-day.. me and a bunch of my friends were on a trip to the states (im from canada) and we smoked a fat one in the hotel room.. i can see what u mean about the first real time being bad, cos at the time i was very very scared.. it was my first and only drug and a brand new feeling.. i did smoke a ton of it that time and just first remember feeling the strobe light effect, where everything went by like a slide-show.. then i remember looking over at my friend who was sitting a few meters from me and then the entire room started to flash and fade away and all i could see was him, then i blinked at the entire room had warped into a desert-like place, with pyramids and the whole works.. everything that my friends were saying went in one ear and out the other..
all my stones since then feel like a dream, yknow? everything is so surreal, content and animated that im always convinced im gonna pinch myself and wake up.. everytime i close my eyes i get fantastic visions of things like looking up at a suspended bridge and the sky was a stormy dark blue, and at the tops of the bridge's pillars there were these cup-like platforms where these pale people would leap off of and float downward very slowly.. its great, just the emotional escape is what makes me enjoy it.. i just had to learn to be comfortable and ease up a bit, and and thats all it took to take worrisome experiences and make them enjoyable for me.. it was just the nerves that made everything bad for my first few times.
**ADDED** Now that I think of it though, whenever i smoke weed, my heart RACES like you would not believe.. its like i cant even feel the 2nd beat its goin so fast.. ive never thought to ask but i see people talkin about it in other trip-related posts.. is this a good thing/bad thing/something to worry about?
[ 19 July 2002: Message edited by: jsc ]