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CAN U live without DRUGS???

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i have been thinking lately about whether i could possibly live a happy, content life without ANY TYPE of regular drug usage..i honestly dont think i could..im SOBER now, but do take EPHEDRINE/CAFFEINE stack, and once in awhile some PMs to sleep..other than that, im clean :)

so, my question, CAN ANYONE of u live yer lives without using drugs??what i mean by drugs is everything from NICOTINE, CAFFEINE, TOBACCO to the likes of XANAX and SMACK etc etc..

give yer reasons for WHY or why u wouldnt be able to asd well..
 
i could live without them, but im just having fun now while im young, most of america might disagree about turning to drugs for fun, but some people just get their kicks in different ways, and using drugs is just one way i like to have fun on occasion. i've just always been adventurous(sp?) and like to try new things just to see what they're like, but if i really had to i could go without them
 
At this point, no. Its pathetic, but I have so many addictions at this point. Benzos, methadone, cigs...if I could get past that little bump in the road. Well then I would be able to live without drugs. Oh shit, and then theres caffeine. At leas I'm being honest NO

AT least I'm married and can get laid everyday so :p
 
You dont have to be married to get laid everyday. Addictions, especially Heroin seem to lower my libido dramatically(if im not on the drug). I wish i could live without drugs. But i am honest with myself which means i do not.
 
I think that I could live without drugs, but I don't think I would be completely happy. Right now drugs are what brings me happiness. Hopefully when I am older I will have a husband and a family to fill that spot.
 
i could live without drugs, i just feel like its incredibly boring. i would definitely have to do something else to alter my conciousness, hopefully i could become more skilled at meditation.
 
Could i live without drugs............hmmmm. Good question.

But thats up to the drugs to decide, how the hell would i know ;p
Maybe if i asked nicely, they would be cool with it.
 
I could live without illegal drugs. Legal ones? I don't know, its the fact that they are in so many facites of our lives. As a student all my friends social lives practically revolve around alcohol. Caffeine is useful for getting a bit motived to do some work. I suppose I could do without it though.

If everyone else had to do without all drugs, then I could. If I was the only one then I'd feel a little left out at times I suppose. Plus there are sometimes those times you just think "I want to get fucked!" (in a drug sense, not a sex sense, though that'd be nice too) when you are stressed.
 
This is a good question for me right now. I've been clean and sober for 90 days now, and honestly, the only good that has come out of my sobriety is meeting a girl at an AA meeting and not having to worry about a) nodding out behind the wheel and b) getting pulled over on drugs or with drugs. That and my family supports me financially again, sort of. Otherwise, I honestly feel like I am doing this for everyone else, to appease them, to get "them" off my back, to fulfill everyone else's hopes and dreams for "success".

I really don't give a shit about life anymore. I worked my ass off my first 19 years of life in hopes of achieving success, the financial success that would allow me to find a great wife and lover and generously support a family of my own. But the fact is I am a hopeless case, I lack empathy, I lack compassion, I could care less about other people and my personality is so fragmented I don't believe there is hope for me to ever become an integrated, loving, caring human being. I am a machine driven by a number of different brains, and the strongest voice says do whatever I want to do, whatever will avoid those feelings of shame and, do that, never again feel shame, never.

The place I am really at in my sobriety right now is the planning stages. I am being methodical in my approach to using. I am going to build enough trust in my family and a system that works for me so that I can one day use again, enjoyably. That is all I have left at this point, and it sucks. On one hand, staying sober does give me a shot at financial success and finding that perfect girl, but it won't matter anyway because I will be miserable and unable to connect with her on any deep level. On the other hand, using will allow me to at least believe I feel love and empathy, and that everything will be ok, but the fact will remain that things are going to be fucked over once again, so even if I did find the perfect girl, my lack of money and stability would prevent it from going anywhere.

The thing that pisses me off the most is how many times I hear "Oh, that's normal to be anxious, to feel ashamed, to be afraid of the world, everyone feels like shit". I don't give a fuck who feels like shit, because I DON'T want to feel like shit. Fuck everyone else, why waste time being miserable? I should re-enter my drug-induced haze of obliviousness and get life over with.

To end, I absolutely do not believe that the great happiness people talk of in sobriety exists, I do NOT believe it. I do hope I will be proven wrong.
 
Drugs can add alot to life, so why ignore them?

Of course they can also take alot from life, so i 'try' not to abuse them.

But at this stage....my answer is no. Oh well
 
I am in the same situation as K'dOUTinAZ - except I am not married and I never get laid. Anyway, I take benzos and dilaudids everyday due to anxiety and pain. If I didn't have those drugs I would be a nervous, paranoid mess in extreme pain. That's not even factoring in withdrawls I get now which are terrible. Basically, I like things the way they are (except for when I don't have anything to get well on).
 
Fuck it. I've tried councelling, anti depressants. The works. I work, get home, get hammered. Wash, rinse, repeat. Life, for me anyway, is mundane.

Even when I have the girl, have things to do, I still cap it off with drugs. Shit I've never tried chatting up some chick without chemical aids to help me along, even then it's kinda uncomfortable.

At least using gives me some pleasure in life, somewhat so I feel like a "normal" person my age does. You just know things in your life aren't right when the only thing you look forward to in the day is getting stoned. It's pretty pityful, but fuck it, people just don't understand.
 
Droop said:
You dont have to be married to get laid everyday.
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Well yeah, obviously.
I think I'm lucky that I'm with someone who likes dope as much as me but has a lot more self-control than me. We use together, but it hasn't become a problem. Using heroin with someone you love is fantastic.
 
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