Okay so last night I only picked up about a third of a gram because that's more than enough for me. I did about 6 lines throughout the course of the night, all only small ones about 40mg each, over about a 6 hour period of time. Between my 5th and 6th line I waited about an hour and a half cause I had no place to do one and wasn't really fiending and suddenly, I got anxiety like out of no where. I just all of a sudden felt bad and wanted to go home but I took my head off it and headed over to a buddies house. I did one last line, just so the anxiety would go away, not a big one either just another 40mg one and then I chilled and went home about an hour later. Surprising, no high heart beat, and after a shower and a couple of shots of some 40% alcohol I was asleep within a half hour.
Sadly, I had about 80mg left in my little baggie (which I know is nothing, but i've only done coke about 8 times) and when I woke up today I was like okay... I'm gonna save this bit for next weekend and thats the last I'm ever gonna do of coke. But then I was like a tiny little line cant hurt right... did a little 10mg line, then 30 minutes later another 10mg line, and then im like fuk it just finish and be done with it, finished the last of the bag in what I consider a pretty big line like a 60mg line...
So yea... definitely not good that I couldn't handle the temptation...
The thing is, I don't even feel like coke is really worth doing while sober.
Like last night I'd had about 6 shots before I started doing it and it just felt incredible, the euphoria lasted the whole time between lines which were about an hour apart... I know cocaethyne is worse for your heart and liver and what not...
But anyways... maybe the coke was purer this time because I didn't have a bad come down at all like I did last weekend when I did it...
Anyways, thanks for all the input.
I'm gonna try my best to just stop doing the stuff period, stop doing stupid 150mg doses of codeine that I cwe during the week to.
Drugs are stupid!
Wish me luck...