N0ph0n0
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 18, 2026
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Hello i am 18 year old male with high functioning autism (asperger). I have never taken opiates and even refused pain killers that were prescribed to me out of fear of getting addicted to that fucking trash from hell. I however have been smoking meth since i was 15 as i keep tricking myself into thinking it allows me live life happily and productively (i enjoy ketamine and DXM alot more but cannot function on either).
Couple months back after i got out of my 3rd rehab i went to see my doctor to get my ritalin dosage increased but i just left with a script for clonidine, naltrexone and brilaroxazine (never took it cause anti psychotics make me feel so fucking depressed). Within an hour of taking the naltrexone i felt zero attraction toward meth, i went from visualing my meth pipe in my mouth allmost constantly, to having zero cravings for sex, food, music and most surprisingly my substance of choice meth. Over time my libido came back and so has my love music but not the cravings for food or meth. Within a month i did however relapse for a few days as while i did not feel cravings i could not refuse to buy meth when my dealer showed up to my door offering me some crystal at a price so low that i believe he must have either stolen it or he hoped that selling it for much less that he paid for it would end up profitable if i fully relapsed. I smoked for 4 days straight but it felt alot less fun than i remembered meth feeling like and honestly just felt like dextro amphetamine. I havent touched the crap since but i still cravings although very quiet and easily fought cravings. I just dont understand how an opiate antagonist can help me so dramatically with an addiction that has nothing to do with meth. I know it is'nt because my meth was cut fent or some other opiate since i allways get that shit tested and my meth was allways locally produced going through maybe 1-2 middlemen max.
Couple months back after i got out of my 3rd rehab i went to see my doctor to get my ritalin dosage increased but i just left with a script for clonidine, naltrexone and brilaroxazine (never took it cause anti psychotics make me feel so fucking depressed). Within an hour of taking the naltrexone i felt zero attraction toward meth, i went from visualing my meth pipe in my mouth allmost constantly, to having zero cravings for sex, food, music and most surprisingly my substance of choice meth. Over time my libido came back and so has my love music but not the cravings for food or meth. Within a month i did however relapse for a few days as while i did not feel cravings i could not refuse to buy meth when my dealer showed up to my door offering me some crystal at a price so low that i believe he must have either stolen it or he hoped that selling it for much less that he paid for it would end up profitable if i fully relapsed. I smoked for 4 days straight but it felt alot less fun than i remembered meth feeling like and honestly just felt like dextro amphetamine. I havent touched the crap since but i still cravings although very quiet and easily fought cravings. I just dont understand how an opiate antagonist can help me so dramatically with an addiction that has nothing to do with meth. I know it is'nt because my meth was cut fent or some other opiate since i allways get that shit tested and my meth was allways locally produced going through maybe 1-2 middlemen max.
