Healing for different parts of the body can be a long process, don’t give up hope Bonita (you’re not alone … I won’t give up hope either you know I understand for sure) … you’re doing awesomeSo where do I start. Again. I know I eye eye me me mee. But I am so tired. I don't understand.
It's not the weed. We used to smoke on the way up the ski lifts so how is that being lazy. When you have to hurry up and get up the hill somehow. Just barely enough time to burn one.
I don't know. The tiredness is scary. I mean it could have all just caught up with me. But maybe not.
The brain fog is going away. Finally. But the slowness probably never. I did get a little better. I can endure and get my chores done faster now.
I can still drive. But I don't want to drive all day. I can hike. and shop.
I kind of accepted it but it is kind of getting scary. Again. I mean I actually nodded after drinking two 8 oz. redbulls right now.
I have passed out on the Monsters many times. Maybe it is just normal to shut down and rest for a while. I am getting some more time in with the whole situation now.
I did so much better this year in the coldness and winter days because the kratom heats me up so bad I don't even need a jacket. It seems to make my metabolism faster.
the gabapentin seems to make me sweat poison . . . because it does go away as soon as I withdrawal a bit. The kratom just keeps me warm. Sometimes very warm. Like sweating before puking warm.
The hot weather last Sum was horrible and I felt like it almost could have killed. And I know it wasn't just me because there was smoke in the air all the way down to the keys.
Like a big heat dome filled with smoke. Toxic kinds. So how healthy is that anyway. It's so fresh now its so clear and nice feeling like a valium. Or actually a better comparison is it feels like memories of fresh spring days. When all felt so new and healthy.
I am not just making this up. I would be out doing things if I really wasn't all of this. I would be out on a mountain bike but I wouldn't overdue it like that anymore.
Or just anywhere. But I can't. I just want to rest and be as happy as possible while I still can be. Maybe it's part of healing the body and it can be repaired.
I just feel that there are so many toxins around that can really harm.
I went away for a few days and the second I got back to the city it just felt/smelled like my house/unit/all the air coming in was like brake dust! So weird compared to a place where there's far less traffic and industry...So where do I start. Again. I know I eye eye me me mee. But I am so tired. I don't understand.
It's not the weed. We used to smoke on the way up the ski lifts so how is that being lazy. When you have to hurry up and get up the hill somehow. Just barely enough time to burn one.
I don't know. The tiredness is scary. I mean it could have all just caught up with me. But maybe not.
The brain fog is going away. Finally. But the slowness probably never. I did get a little better. I can endure and get my chores done faster now.
I can still drive. But I don't want to drive all day. I can hike. and shop.
I kind of accepted it but it is kind of getting scary. Again. I mean I actually nodded after drinking two 8 oz. redbulls right now.
I have passed out on the Monsters many times. Maybe it is just normal to shut down and rest for a while. I am getting some more time in with the whole situation now.
I did so much better this year in the coldness and winter days because the kratom heats me up so bad I don't even need a jacket. It seems to make my metabolism faster.
the gabapentin seems to make me sweat poison . . . because it does go away as soon as I withdrawal a bit. The kratom just keeps me warm. Sometimes very warm. Like sweating before puking warm.
The hot weather last Sum was horrible and I felt like it almost could have killed. And I know it wasn't just me because there was smoke in the air all the way down to the keys.
Like a big heat dome filled with smoke. Toxic kinds. So how healthy is that anyway. It's so fresh now its so clear and nice feeling like a valium. Or actually a better comparison is it feels like memories of fresh spring days. When all felt so new and healthy.
I am not just making this up. I would be out doing things if I really wasn't all of this. I would be out on a mountain bike but I wouldn't overdue it like that anymore.
Or just anywhere. But I can't. I just want to rest and be as happy as possible while I still can be. Maybe it's part of healing the body and it can be repaired.
I just feel that there are so many toxins around that can really harm.
. . . . Particulate Matter levels aren't ideal. :#
I guess we have to breathe though. Everything depends on good health.
We have to keep breathing and keep on seeing things for what they are
and as safe and effective as they can be.
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At least things aren't quite this bad yet !!
Lol. I just threw this in for some fun. Sori.
I guess we shouldn't take things for granted like air, water, and infinite resources,
though.
Epic!!! . . . . . there used to be a rave track which sampled "Spice expands consciousness"
based on an Isaac Asimov novel
Look at that sweetieMY HERO
Anytime amigaOh I forgot to quote . . . Duh.
But Thank You, Again !