Hi all -
This is the first post I've ever written after reading these forums for years and years and years.
I've been on and off of pain killers since high school really with a bad addiction immediately following high school. Almost everything I did in life i had pain killers in me. I've done ibogaine in MX twice in the last year. The first time I was free for 4 months. The 2nd time it didn't have a good effect on me and I basically immediately went back to using. This was around new years. Since then I've been in SF where it is unbelievablely easy to get roxy and anything on the street. However my job brings me to Vegas every month and it's hit or miss while I'm there.
I feel like this has to be it for me. I have got to change my life around now and get help doing it or I fear some really bad things could happen. When I'm using I literally do not take care of anything in personal life - especially bills, getting my car registered, etc.
I'm pretty sure I have 100% everything I need for withdrawing. The hard thing is that I am in high demand at my office and need to be on my A-game. Otherwise I'm putting my job on the line.
I bought:
Daily Amino Acids essential and non essential
DLPA - 500mg
L-Theanine - 100mg
L-Tryosine - 500mg
5HTP - 100mg
GABA - 750mg
Milk Thistle - 250mg
Passion Flower - 350mg
Valerian Root - ??
Vitamin C - 1000mg for megadosing.
Lopermide
A concoction of Aswagandha, lemon balm, st Johns wort.
A great daily multivitamin
I also have 4 tabs of 8mg Suboxone - which I really do not want to use...but have.
-Also have several .5mg Klonapins
So with all of those things combined i feel like I'm pretty much ready to go.
However - I would like to taper the pain killers down to simeltaneously with taking taking everything else. I really want to make this as least painful as possible due to I cannot let the people I work know what I'm going through.
I do feel like with your support, guidance, suggestions, and accountability I can do this as least painful as possible. It's important to add that I do have a great resource here in Vegas to tap into (friend of my ibogaine provider who had a recovery house). My plan is to make contact with him soon to begin going to meetings, and joining other ways he has setup for his house.
Would love to hear your feedback and I 100% vow and promise to stay honest and let you know about tapering the pills (which I have none of right now) and anything else you think is important for me to get on the right track.
Much love!
mau5
This is the first post I've ever written after reading these forums for years and years and years.
I've been on and off of pain killers since high school really with a bad addiction immediately following high school. Almost everything I did in life i had pain killers in me. I've done ibogaine in MX twice in the last year. The first time I was free for 4 months. The 2nd time it didn't have a good effect on me and I basically immediately went back to using. This was around new years. Since then I've been in SF where it is unbelievablely easy to get roxy and anything on the street. However my job brings me to Vegas every month and it's hit or miss while I'm there.
I feel like this has to be it for me. I have got to change my life around now and get help doing it or I fear some really bad things could happen. When I'm using I literally do not take care of anything in personal life - especially bills, getting my car registered, etc.
I'm pretty sure I have 100% everything I need for withdrawing. The hard thing is that I am in high demand at my office and need to be on my A-game. Otherwise I'm putting my job on the line.
I bought:
Daily Amino Acids essential and non essential
DLPA - 500mg
L-Theanine - 100mg
L-Tryosine - 500mg
5HTP - 100mg
GABA - 750mg
Milk Thistle - 250mg
Passion Flower - 350mg
Valerian Root - ??
Vitamin C - 1000mg for megadosing.
Lopermide
A concoction of Aswagandha, lemon balm, st Johns wort.
A great daily multivitamin
I also have 4 tabs of 8mg Suboxone - which I really do not want to use...but have.
-Also have several .5mg Klonapins
So with all of those things combined i feel like I'm pretty much ready to go.
However - I would like to taper the pain killers down to simeltaneously with taking taking everything else. I really want to make this as least painful as possible due to I cannot let the people I work know what I'm going through.
I do feel like with your support, guidance, suggestions, and accountability I can do this as least painful as possible. It's important to add that I do have a great resource here in Vegas to tap into (friend of my ibogaine provider who had a recovery house). My plan is to make contact with him soon to begin going to meetings, and joining other ways he has setup for his house.
Would love to hear your feedback and I 100% vow and promise to stay honest and let you know about tapering the pills (which I have none of right now) and anything else you think is important for me to get on the right track.
Much love!
mau5
