Then when I was 18 I ate mushrooms and had a full-on peak experience that changed my life forever... I saw that instead of a monotheistic deity or a total lack of anything, we are all the universe experiencing itself subjectively, in an infinite array of forms. The awareness within us all is the same force that lies at the heart of existence. I am you and you are me and we are all the same, yet unique in our own set of dimensional and material constraints. I "woke up" in my trip and experienced this, I saw my own current physical life narrowed down in importance to equal to every other life. The truth of the experience was self-evident, it was exactly like waking up from a dream where you take a moment to shake off the reality of the dream and then remember what reality really is with all of your accumulated life experience coming back into your mind. Except my life was the dream. The experience was so real that I came down and my life and perceptive have never been the same since.
I don't believe in eternal punishment or retribution. Life just is, and the meaning lies in the fact that we have this amazing chance to experience a subjective existence in the illusion of separateness. There is no afterlife for you, the individual... but for you/us, the universe, life is eternal and infinite.