Blog Theme: Change In Perspective (First One)

(I posted this the other day but deleted it shortly after. I was in a negative space when I typed it. Kinda went against my 'personal rules' for Blogs in deleting it. For good or bad, my feelings are my feelings and are a snapshot of myself at a particular moment. It is what it is)

I'm hoping this particular perspective will pass and that it isn't a reality. I sense it is truth.

I've come to realize that I'm the only one that can do anything about my personal life challenges and that I have to deal with them by myself. Essentially, people don't want to hear it.

I get support and can reach out to people that I have never met but I have been refraining from that. Besides, its pretty fuckin' sad that my real friends are screen names on BL and the occasional voice on the phone from long distances away.

This teaches me about personal responsibility. If I fail to do what is necessary than I am the only one to blame for the consequences. When I do manage to do what is required in the day-to-day I benefit from the results. I'm okay with this. Its simple and its something every person in existence experiences.

The perspective? Its one of loneliness. I got this... you can fuckin' bet on that, but, I sure would like to share the positive with folks regardless of their disappearances during the negatives.

I guess the positive is being shared, just not in a way that I am accustomed to.

I dunno... being aware that it is all up to me, that I gotta handle my pains without bothering folks is making me strong but it is also making me colder.

Expectations, man. They cloud my rational thought. Everyone does things in their own way. I just hate the selfishness and immediate conclusion from others that 'I got this'.

Fuck it, man. Do we really need others in our lives at a personal level? I think it is more of a 'want' than a 'need'. My responsibilities are my 'needs'. My 'wants' may happen later in this game.

Take care of shit 'now' for a better 'later'. Everything else (friendship, hobbies, fun, etc) are just extras. They'll come later.

My foundation is built and its strong. Those other things will hold strong on that cement some day. I hope I will have resolved my resentments towards others when I'm ready to build.

 

Yes, we do need others in our lives. Perhaps not many people, but a few good friends are very important to allow us to stay sane. Having been essentially without social contact for the better part of a year, I can testify that isolation is a hindrance to good mental health. This is a need, and one that is often neglected.

Even moreso is physical touch. This ties into the former point, but the former does not necessarily lead to the latter. In my case, that's something that I'm trying to change in my own life, but it's generálly slow going, at for my part sometimes... complicating.

 

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Yes, we do need others in our lives. Perhaps not many people, but a few good friends are very important to allow us to stay sane. Having been essentially without social contact for the better part of a year, I can testify that isolation is a hindrance to good mental health. This is a need, and one that is often neglected.

I agree with this on account of my having been without social contact for extended periods of time. You start to become crazy.

Even moreso is physical touch. This ties into the former point, but the former does not necessarily lead to the latter. In my case, that's something that I'm trying to change in my own life, but it's generálly slow going, at for my part sometimes... complicating.

I can't stand physical contact with other people. Never have been comfortable with it.