Ended up in a long deep conversation with my ex earlier today about the failure of our relationship and why we never made it back together again, I was pretty much almost in tears by the end of it, even though we have been split for 17 months now I still love her to bits. I'm happy to remain friends though, as we are best friends in the world.
I miss so much about being with her though, I miss having a beautiful face to wake up next to every morning. I miss the daily companionship, it is such a lonely life without her, I miss just hanging out at home on the couch watching TV together(on and off MXE!) One thing I miss so much though is talking about our plans for the future together, I used to get really excited talking about planning a family togetherr, and now that dream is a just a dream.
We had so many fun times together, whether outside or in the house, we never really run out of things to say or do, that means a hell of a lot IMO, there was never a shortage of laughter in our life as couple. We compliment each other perfectly, we are like a 2 piece jigsaw puzzle that fits perfectl!
I could talk to her about anything and everything, no matter how serious or silly, she is my soulmate and I threw it away because I thought the grass may be greener. That was officialy the worst decision I ever made in my life and it's taken 17 months to get myself into a place where being best friends is something that a I easily do,a although deep down I still feel the desire and my heart and gut are telling me to ask for one more chance.
It is so hard to find a reason to live each morning that I wake up, I only have myself to live for. life seems totally worthless without her, I miss having someone to love and care for everyday, I miss cooking romantic meals for the two of us( I've not properly cooked since we split. I would be living for two people if we got backt together, and I would put everything I have into making you the happiest girl in the world, which in turn would make me the happiest man on the planet!
I miss the smile on her face when we meet att the front door when the second person gets home from work and we have a huge loving squeezys hug. I love listening to her about her job and vice versass,
Most of all, I miss making the most special girl in the world feel loved as often as possible, mulltiple times a day. I adore her sweet smile and I would give anything to truly make her feel loved again. Absolutely anything in the world, I'd also keep her safe and would look after her when she is ill. I'd literally do anything for the girl.
That's right, I'd do absolutley anything and everything for the girl, because I love her more than I have ever loved anyone and I cant stand another month or two without you by my side.
P.s. even after all that I just wrote, I am still 100% wanting to stay best friends. I just needed to ask one more time, especially after our conversation Sunday morning
I miss so much about being with her though, I miss having a beautiful face to wake up next to every morning. I miss the daily companionship, it is such a lonely life without her, I miss just hanging out at home on the couch watching TV together(on and off MXE!) One thing I miss so much though is talking about our plans for the future together, I used to get really excited talking about planning a family togetherr, and now that dream is a just a dream.
We had so many fun times together, whether outside or in the house, we never really run out of things to say or do, that means a hell of a lot IMO, there was never a shortage of laughter in our life as couple. We compliment each other perfectly, we are like a 2 piece jigsaw puzzle that fits perfectl!
I could talk to her about anything and everything, no matter how serious or silly, she is my soulmate and I threw it away because I thought the grass may be greener. That was officialy the worst decision I ever made in my life and it's taken 17 months to get myself into a place where being best friends is something that a I easily do,a although deep down I still feel the desire and my heart and gut are telling me to ask for one more chance.
It is so hard to find a reason to live each morning that I wake up, I only have myself to live for. life seems totally worthless without her, I miss having someone to love and care for everyday, I miss cooking romantic meals for the two of us( I've not properly cooked since we split. I would be living for two people if we got backt together, and I would put everything I have into making you the happiest girl in the world, which in turn would make me the happiest man on the planet!
I miss the smile on her face when we meet att the front door when the second person gets home from work and we have a huge loving squeezys hug. I love listening to her about her job and vice versass,
Most of all, I miss making the most special girl in the world feel loved as often as possible, mulltiple times a day. I adore her sweet smile and I would give anything to truly make her feel loved again. Absolutely anything in the world, I'd also keep her safe and would look after her when she is ill. I'd literally do anything for the girl.
That's right, I'd do absolutley anything and everything for the girl, because I love her more than I have ever loved anyone and I cant stand another month or two without you by my side.
P.s. even after all that I just wrote, I am still 100% wanting to stay best friends. I just needed to ask one more time, especially after our conversation Sunday morning