I'll just say i was a big coke head and then got more into being a crackhead for years i did crack almost everyday,,but for some reason ,i guess from lack of experience i never took my benzo meds to come down ...now looking back they could have saved my ass so many times ,,i always just toughed it out and it was hell...now i dont do crack anymore ,,but id love to giver a go with about an 8 ball and then use my benzos to come down just to see what i was missing ,,i was so stupid,,any heavy drug i used i just took the concequences of abuseing hard drugs which ussualy ment a bad fuckin hangover day ,,and the fuckin depression of comin off a crack binge was terible....live and learn..
I just sarted my methadone program and am only on 15 mg till wednesday,then i get upped to 20 mg,,i had my first experience with WD from the Methadone as my body ate up the done to quikly ..
I had to go to the pharmacy and the clinic fuckin sick as shit,,i threw up on the way to the bus and sweated my ass off waiting to give blood work and to see a dietition,,it realy sucked ,but im feeling better now since i took my dose at 1015 and its now 315..I am still allowed to take my benzos and even take T3s for pain when i need them ,,i have cut down alot,and cant wait to cut the pills out totaly..well the opiats anyway ,,ill always be on my benzos and they seem okay with it as long as i dont abuse and stay to takeing them as im perscribed ..i am even allowed to take my 60 mg of temazepams at bed with my seroquels and heart pills ...so far i am actually noticing a bit of diference to the constant need to down tonnes of pills ..
start 20 mg wednesday and cant wait ..
to bad it takes a week here in canada to get upped only 5 mg per week ,but ill endure as long as i know that i will be better off in the long run....
But honestly never expected to have WDs from only 15 mg plus the odd T3s or T1s...fackin threw up rite in the middle of the street on my way to the bus ,,how emarasing.and then spent all morning sweating my ass off ...oh well gotta go threw some bad to get to the good rite ...and i get alot of support from a bud from bluelight and my mom,,,so im al good..peace out peeps keep safe man ...