Benzos Benzos addiction will kill me in a week.

[itsoverforme]

My life collapsed some time ago. I was taking Xanax for nearly 2.5 years. I eventually spiraled and went from 10 to 20 to 30 mg/day for over a week now. It's over for me. I'm not from the US, nobody will help me detox here. In fact the nearest mental hospital only has stories about people hanging themselves inside and they never helped anybody. Doctors barely know anything about benzos. I'll run out of benzos in a week and I have no money or means to get more. Considering my physical health is ruined as well, maybe the grand mal seizures will kill me. Or just make me a vegetable. I have no options but to die. But I don't know how to force myself to because of my stupid brain. With 164 hours left to live what's left of my mind has collapsed as well. I can't deal with this anymore. This is just a goodbye I guess.

 

[AngelsandFairiesarereal]

My life collapsed some time ago. I was taking Xanax for nearly 2.5 years. I eventually spiraled and went from 10 to 20 to 30 mg/day for over a week now. It's over for me. I'm not from the US, nobody will help me detox here. In fact the nearest mental hospital only has stories about people hanging themselves inside and they never helped anybody. Doctors barely know anything about benzos. I'll run out of benzos in a week and I have no money or means to get more. Considering my physical health is ruined as well, maybe the grand mal seizures will kill me. Or just make me a vegetable. I have no options but to die. But I don't know how to force myself to because of my stupid brain. With 164 hours left to live what's left of my mind has collapsed as well. I can't deal with this anymore. This is just a goodbye I guess.

Can you go to a regular hospital and tell them you are in fear of seizures or need an anti-epileptic medication. Or screw it tell them how much Xanax you’ve taken and that you’ve had seizures in the past when stopping it. Or just tell them you’ve had seizures and are feeling like you are going to have one. Anything you can do to make sure to not have a seizure … the most important thing is your safety and survival in this moment.

 

[TheUltimateFixx]

There's a *risk* of fatal seizures with benzo WD, it's not a given. Either way take yourself to the ER right away; if you do start suffering seizures, you have the right people on hand to help.

 

[itsoverforme]

ER will just send me to the local nuthouse. They already tried once when I had a referral to a normal hospital for physical issues. Instead of doing that they labeled me as a mental patient and tried to lock me up. It's pointless to seek help cause no help exists.

 

[AngelsandFairiesarereal]

Please just try to go to the hospital again, it might be different this time. I understand and believe what you said happened, but really maybe there can be hope that this time can be different. You will be safer than if you are going through this alone either way no matter what happens. Your most important thing to do right now is survive, you can do this and you are going to be okay even if you don’t feel it right now. But you have to go get help from medical professional if you can’t get more Xanax and taper yourself. The doses are too high to risk not at least trying to go to the hospital. No matter what happens Don’t give up.

 

[Joey]

ER will just send me to the local nuthouse. They already tried once when I had a referral to a normal hospital for physical issues. Instead of doing that they labeled me as a mental patient and tried to lock me up. It's pointless to seek help cause no help exists.

Maybe that's where you need to be. It's at least 3 hots and a cot and supervision while you withdraw.

 

[emkee_reinvented]

What the first two options not available.
No dr. you have that will help neither a ER.
Option only, like Joey wrote, the mental yard,
better then death. Or a seizure, also bad.
If that means being labelled so be it. Save your self.
I don t care about the label you get, but care bout live or death.
It has a purpose, survival is what humans are made for.

Are Benzo s OTC, can you get more and taper, slowly ?

Erythrina Mulungu extract, grows in south-America.
And is available as med from pharmacy s, there !

But see as desperate last resort,
but dying from Benzo WD is un-necessary.
Like they gave you a death sentence

Abstract https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/22381390/​

In this study, we isolated the alkaloid erysothrine from the hydroalcoholic extract of flowers from E. mulungu and screened for its anticonvulsant and anxiolytic actions based on neuroethological and neurochemical experiments. Our results showed that the administration of erysothrine inhibited seizures evoked by bicuculline, PTZ, NMDA and most remarkably, kainic acid. Also, erysothrine induced an increase in the number of entries but not in the time spent in the open arms of the EPM. However, we did not notice any alterations in the light-dark choice or in the open-field tests. In preliminary neurochemistry tests, we also showed that erysothrine (0.001-10 μg/mL) did not alter the GABA or glutamate synaptossomal uptake and binding. Altogether, our results describe an alkaloid with anticonvulsant activity and mild anxiolytic activity that might be considered well tolerated as it does not alter the general behavior of the animals in the used doses.