Being a poor propylhexedrine addict sucks...

[JackiesBabyy]

Just wanted to vent a bit.

Since being too poor to fill my adderall scripts lately I've had to resort to shoplifting huge amounts of benzedrex inhalers(extracting it from the cotton of course so as to not get a bowel obstruction), I've stolen probably hundreds of em from stores around my area, memorizing every place that carries them in a 30 mile radius. Got caught only one time so far but it didn't deter me. The high is the only way I can experience a few hours of happiness anymore. I wish I could stop, I've been trying to find a job but it's hard to even get a damn interview and harder to impress someone enough to hire me when I'm like this. I hope to get one soon so I can get my script filled and finally be happy again without needing to resort to stealing. I know people have it worse than I do and I don't expect sympathy, I just felt like letting this out.

 

[T. Calderone]

There are programs that may help cover the cost of your medicine. My sister used to get one her psych meds free from the manufacturer.
I found one on the web that may be useful to you:

http://www.nami.org/Template.cfm?se...Management/contentDisplay.cfm&ContentID=19169

I'm scared that you may get an arrest record if you keep shoplifting the inhalers. You could end up in jail since you already got caught once. Do you have any support from family or friends? Please try and get some help!

 

[Xorkoth]

I used to shoplift poppy seeds when I was in the depths of my opiate addiction. Got caught once also, fortunately they just made me pay for it (which I could at the time though it screwed me later that month), and didn't even take my picture or anything, but they did ban me from the store for life. That was years ago, I go there at night now because only the general manager and one assistant manager who doesn't work there anymore saw me (and it's right by my house and the grocery store I used to go to exclusively due to convenience). I look different now, I could probably just go anytime but I don't want to risk it. I didn't entirely stop after that (except at that store of course) but I'm so glad I don't do that anymore; even though in a way it was exciting, it was also scary and you can go to jail for it, or at least get some hefty fines/community service and have a record.

I like propylhexedrine every so often too, I actually did it a bit too much a couple of weeks ago and it drained the shit out of me, I won't be touching it for a while.

You CAN stop, you just need to have some solid willpower. Fortunately for you it's not opiates or benzos or other terribly physically addictive drugs. Stick around here, people in this forum are very supportive and have helped many people to have the strength and accountability to stick to quitting. If you keep doing this, it's only a matter of time before you end up in jail and your life gets much worse.

 

[Corazon]

Yea

have to stop the prop , whatever it takes

if you have to stay inside a couple days
maybe have to work a day-labor job for a few days

get your rx and don't fucking abuse it - use the energy to get that job interview

good luck

 

[Allein]

I don't wish to pry but why are you prescribed adderall ? TBH it sounds like this has become more of a drug abuse issue than one of health.

Do you think you can be functional without the medication ? I not being judgmental, in truth I have my own struggles with stimulants and know how it feels to be caught in the grip of amphetamines, needing to dose to avoid the crash and the drawn out fatigue when you stop.

Steeling these things is only making your life more complicated and I guess is becoming a real drain on you being, creating a vicious circle that you could well do without.

There's gotta be a better way