Begrudging Wolf in Sheeps Clothing

I just rang the Ambulance. He txt'd and said he is going to kill himself and refused to answer my calls. The Emergency services just rang back and said he answered and said me and him were just having a domestic. The guy on the phone seemed to believe him. Am so fucking angry. Tired of being made a fool of...

What the fuck am I going to do...I cant sever anything with him, he wont reason with me!!! Today he cried with me and I told him we just have to go our own way and sort out our own lives independently. We were txt'ing and he was going to go to a meeting etc and he was fine and then I'm landed with this bomshell. He just keeps making a fucking asshole out of me.
Am so tired of this shit...I am fairly reasonable but he is fucking with me..I feel like such an idiot! The longest commited relationship I've kept down has been with a fucking Emotionally, Manipulative lunatic. That'l learn me I guess!
Just dont want to become all embittered and hard hearted again.

Fucking bastard this morning compared me to a Manatee-he knows I have Huge Body image problems and have an Eating disorder, couldnt even go out at christmas cause I felt I looked like a fucking ten ton mass of gelatinous crap!- this is what made me tell him it's over(it might seem petty to some people but Im not into being an insensitive Moron with people myself and dont need that shit in my life, its just on principle.) I actually forgive him too quickly, I know he's sick but am starting to think he isnt as sick as I make out, fucking Macho prick! Just praying to keep my strength up and never contact him again. Rather be somewhat balanced on my own than have this screwball take me down with him with his passive-aggressive shit!

 

you definitely don't deserve to be treated like that, Not one fucking bit. Dude sounds pretty familiar, though. Some of us tend to be to one extreme or the other at any given moment and i don't kn ow why (even though I am the same way myself)

Be strong, girl! We got you if you need any support

 

Thanks so much OD! That means alot to hear Not even going to think about it much today, it's too headwrecking. Glad I rang th Emergency services in a way...want him to know that if he's threatening suicide etc(Again!) that there are channels there I will get involved(that way he wont be expecting me to be at his beck and call) he is Histronic IMO.
Have been in hospitals, at Cop stations, he broke 2 of my housemates carwindows etc This is it! Finnito! No more drama!
The only reason I put up with it is because I figured he was sick, I identified with some of his problems, I liked his strong personality and his softness(which I now realise is self-centered neediness), also I didnt want it on my concience that I wouldnt be ther for him, especially worried he would kill himself if I left(I had good reason to believe this).
The 'off' button has now been triggered...he is out!!!