The past little while, I have been MIA for a reason... I fell off the wagon and I really didn't mean to. I tore the meniscus in my knee and had surgery, so I was back on
the lortab again. During that time, I also switched doctors. I either had to get back on xanax or it was the end of my job, so I went to this doc that my boss highly
recommended. At first, I was impressed. He put me back on gabapentin (the lyrica is total fail IMHO) and really seemed to be concerned. That is, until I asked if I might
need a higher dose. Suddenly, it was as if I was a med-seeker. I had one of my bad back spells and went in to see what he could do. Usually when this happens, a run of
prednisone and maybe lortab do the trick. I asked about the pred (mistake #1), but he just gave me lortab 5's which are useless. I ran out and the pain was still insane, so I called him. Well, all he told me was that I needed physical therapy and I'd feel better. A few months later, I got sick and went in. He flat out refused to even give mea prescription cough syrup! Told me to take OTC stuff. Wow. I could have saved my money for other things.
That was the last time I went.
So, last week, I went to this nurse practitioner a friend spoke highly of. That was a HUGE disaster. Because I feared I would appear to be doctor shopping, I didn't tell this
person that I had seen the other doctor. She originally gave me a prescription for clonazepam (I had a panic attack at work one day and need to be on anxiety meds),
but for some reason, she kept stalling when I asked about filling my adderall. She left the exam room and then came back in a few minutes later with a printout.
Suddenly, she shouts at me, asking me if I am just trying to find someone to prescribe my controlled substances. She said, "you think you are pretty smart don't you?
You didn't know I could pull all the records of all the controlled drugs you have filled, huh?" I tried to level with this psycho, telling her I was afraid of looking like a doctor shopper,
that I wanted to find a doc that I could trust and actually communicate with. Well, she took back the prescriptions she wrote, telling me I didn't deserve them and that
we would need to work together more in order for her to trust me.
Now, I'm off my adderall and have been for two months. It sucks. I'm driving myself crazy. I've been smoking weed in order to mellow myself out. And I'm freaked over
that, too. If I go back to the nurse practitioner, I KNOW she's gonna drug test me. Last thing I want is to end up in rehab. If I go to yet another doctor, I can guarantee
my insurance company is going to start to wonder what the hell is going on.
THIS SUCKS!!! I've been working my ass off trying not to abuse the lortab I have had and never take my adderall other than prescribed. A 30 day supply often lasts me
60 days because I don't take it unless I'm at work or school. I take xanax as an "In Case of Emergency, Break Glass" sort of way. Yet, I'm a druggie and don't deserve
the medication that keeps me balanced.
the lortab again. During that time, I also switched doctors. I either had to get back on xanax or it was the end of my job, so I went to this doc that my boss highly
recommended. At first, I was impressed. He put me back on gabapentin (the lyrica is total fail IMHO) and really seemed to be concerned. That is, until I asked if I might
need a higher dose. Suddenly, it was as if I was a med-seeker. I had one of my bad back spells and went in to see what he could do. Usually when this happens, a run of
prednisone and maybe lortab do the trick. I asked about the pred (mistake #1), but he just gave me lortab 5's which are useless. I ran out and the pain was still insane, so I called him. Well, all he told me was that I needed physical therapy and I'd feel better. A few months later, I got sick and went in. He flat out refused to even give mea prescription cough syrup! Told me to take OTC stuff. Wow. I could have saved my money for other things.
That was the last time I went.
So, last week, I went to this nurse practitioner a friend spoke highly of. That was a HUGE disaster. Because I feared I would appear to be doctor shopping, I didn't tell this
person that I had seen the other doctor. She originally gave me a prescription for clonazepam (I had a panic attack at work one day and need to be on anxiety meds),
but for some reason, she kept stalling when I asked about filling my adderall. She left the exam room and then came back in a few minutes later with a printout.
Suddenly, she shouts at me, asking me if I am just trying to find someone to prescribe my controlled substances. She said, "you think you are pretty smart don't you?
You didn't know I could pull all the records of all the controlled drugs you have filled, huh?" I tried to level with this psycho, telling her I was afraid of looking like a doctor shopper,
that I wanted to find a doc that I could trust and actually communicate with. Well, she took back the prescriptions she wrote, telling me I didn't deserve them and that
we would need to work together more in order for her to trust me.
Now, I'm off my adderall and have been for two months. It sucks. I'm driving myself crazy. I've been smoking weed in order to mellow myself out. And I'm freaked over
that, too. If I go back to the nurse practitioner, I KNOW she's gonna drug test me. Last thing I want is to end up in rehab. If I go to yet another doctor, I can guarantee
my insurance company is going to start to wonder what the hell is going on.
THIS SUCKS!!! I've been working my ass off trying not to abuse the lortab I have had and never take my adderall other than prescribed. A 30 day supply often lasts me
60 days because I don't take it unless I'm at work or school. I take xanax as an "In Case of Emergency, Break Glass" sort of way. Yet, I'm a druggie and don't deserve
the medication that keeps me balanced.