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Mental Health "because you're f*ing crazy!!!!!!!!!!" -My Boyfriend

I'm no doctor obviously and this is just speculation, but a lot of things you're describing sound like borderline personality disorder. Either way the best thing you could do I think is stay off the smack and see a psychiatrist. Also, adderall isn't usually indicated for bipolar disorder if that's what you have. Stimulants make bipolar symptoms worse.
 
it's good you're not taking the Adderall now you just need to get rid of the heroin for good. I know that you wanted to do the right thing by being truthful about your usage. Then he got pissed but it's better than lying. You have to find a way to quit otherwise you will both be back to the same shit and that's the last thing you need.

Get some help because you can't do this on your own. Even an NA meeting to get you started. I know you are in suboxone for tapering off heroin. You must have a strong resolve because once he gets out, he may want to party just for the sake of it. You have to be prepared for this and have a plan.

As much as you have tried to do the right thing, it could easily fly out the window in a quick moment because you both decide to get high.
Much love to you, hang in there and let us know how you're doing! We're here to help. <3
 
^ thanks for the response. :)


I am fully involved in NA and have a sponsor. I have been attending na for 4 years now. I just kinda stopped going when I was getting high (obvi) but now I am going again. I have not taken any sub today. I thought of using today but I called my sponsor and am meeting her at another meeting. I know from prior experience that two addicts together (esp newly clean ones) is never usually a good idea, but I don't want to walk away from the love of my life before we even try. The only good thing is that he is gonna be on pretty strict supervision when he gets out, which may help hold him accountable. Make no mistake, I am under no allusion that being monitored by probation and parole prevents people from using, I am just saying at least he knows he has SOME sort of accountability. As for me, I am at the end of my probation, which always kind of makes me nervous, however I am supervised and watched by a different type of board due to my occupation. I am so lucky nothing has happened yet with my career.

I am going to try my very very best to get rid of this heroin shit for good. I did it before, I can do it again. And with all of your help. <3
 
Good luck, it may take a whole fuckin' lot of willpower, but you can do it. You're stronger than the substance, which you've already demonstrated.
 
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