badboybrian
Bluelight Crew
Trapped. I want to get out but somehow, I just can't seem to free myself from this trap that only I have created.
It's simple, really. Get up off your feet and walk away. Start over, leaving your past behind and taking nothing with you but the lessons you've learned. Simple? Easier said than done. How could I leave? How could I leave with all these barriers surrounding me? Again, barriers that I have created that seem to peak as high as if they were touching the clouds and the only way to get across them is to propel myself hundreds and thousands of feet into the air just enough to leap over to the other side. But reality has forced me to keep my feet planted on the ground, not allowing me to go...anywhere.
Well, how about the "up" side? I'm comfortable. There is no risk in trying to do something new. I stay trapped, yet still feel secure. Okay, then what about the "down" side. I'm miserable. Staying in this trap, I haven't been happy for a long time. I mean, I try to make do. I try my best at deluding my feelings and drowning them so that they do not surface. A false sense of security. But no. It doesn't seem to work. As much as I try to push them down, the come right back up again. The harder I push, the faster they surface.
Even more so, these barriers...they seem as if they are closing in on me. My comfortable trap seems smaller...and smaller. I'm afraid that I will not be able to move AT ALL. I must break free. I need to break free. Allow yourself to break free. The only thing you are pushing down is yourself. The harder you push, the faster you feel the pain. Why allow yourself to feel this way? You have to free yourself from this trap. You have to allow the barriers to fall. You have to make your decision. You have to do it now.
It's simple, really. Get up off your feet and walk away. Start over, leaving your past behind and taking nothing with you but the lessons you've learned. Simple? Easier said than done. How could I leave? How could I leave with all these barriers surrounding me? Again, barriers that I have created that seem to peak as high as if they were touching the clouds and the only way to get across them is to propel myself hundreds and thousands of feet into the air just enough to leap over to the other side. But reality has forced me to keep my feet planted on the ground, not allowing me to go...anywhere.
Well, how about the "up" side? I'm comfortable. There is no risk in trying to do something new. I stay trapped, yet still feel secure. Okay, then what about the "down" side. I'm miserable. Staying in this trap, I haven't been happy for a long time. I mean, I try to make do. I try my best at deluding my feelings and drowning them so that they do not surface. A false sense of security. But no. It doesn't seem to work. As much as I try to push them down, the come right back up again. The harder I push, the faster they surface.
Even more so, these barriers...they seem as if they are closing in on me. My comfortable trap seems smaller...and smaller. I'm afraid that I will not be able to move AT ALL. I must break free. I need to break free. Allow yourself to break free. The only thing you are pushing down is yourself. The harder you push, the faster you feel the pain. Why allow yourself to feel this way? You have to free yourself from this trap. You have to allow the barriers to fall. You have to make your decision. You have to do it now.
