Bad trip or real insanity?

[rpm]

Were you way off track prior to the experience without realising it? Kinda curious.

Yeah I really was. I had a big ego, difficult sex life (trying to steal somone else's girlfriend), was dealing kilo's and kilo's of weed, skipping uni to take mdma all day. Looking back on it that whole period was crazy!

Now I'm doing a phd in neuroscience and hoping for my first publication.

 

[rpm]

i had a couple trips like that before i was diagnosed with schizophrenia,..,. i thought monsters/aliens/russians were invading - and i thought my entire life was a book so nothing i did mattered.. i did some crazy stuff that i will not repeat.. then later i found that i needed to be on a medium dose of anti psychotics to feel normal... i must have tripped about 50 times in my teen years.. now it's been 8 years without LSD...

That's terrible. Sorry to hear.

So the warning is that the same thing might happen to me? Well I don't think it would (just a gut fealing that I now have reasonable control over my mind) but you never know.

You say you tripped 50 times. How many psychotic trips if you don't mind me asking? Also, how where the one's which where better/good? Just interested to see how similar we may be.

Peace and hope it goes well for you

 

[ford442]

i really only had one time that was bad - i was left alone in the woods at night on 8 blotters.. i ran into civilization and into a supermarket yelling about the end of the world.. climbed up a huge pile of dogfood bags and the cops took me down... but, that incident got me thinking later that something was a little more different about me and LSD.. i don't blame the LSD for bringing on my condition - only showing me that there was something there.. i think meth made it a bit worse - it was a few years after stopping meth that i was diagnosed..

before the onset i was shy, quiet, dressed in all black, had very few friends, had trouble communicating sometimes or relating at all to other kids.. did ok in school, but had very limited social life.. my thoughts were so different from my friends that i often had nothing to say for long stretches.. when the onset did happen i started thinking there were demons following me - talking to me - trying to take possession of me until i called the cops on myself one christmas night telling them that i was considering suicide.. now with 20mg Zyprexa at night i feel a lot more even...