BashfulBard
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Hello! I wanted to seek guidance here as this weekend I had a terrible experience on MDMA three days ago and am in the midst of some rocking anxiety. I need to troubleshoot what caused this so I can avoid it in the future.
Background:
- My first time rolling was with a pressed pill over the last new year and was incredible. Second attempt was March but I mistakenly was given a bump of coke (an angry story for another time perhaps) and the roll was killed. My third attempt and second roll was Pride this year using the same pill as the new year. I do not know the milligram dosing on the pills unfortunately but a friend estimates them at 100-125mg.
- I take Vyvanse for my ADHD at 10-20mg. The first and second rolls were preceded by such a dose but I didn’t take the MDMA until a couple hours after the Vyvanse’s window.
- I’m quite stimulant sensitive: my Vyvanse dose is low, I can only really take up to 30mg caffeine
This Weekend:
- So this weekend I was really looking forward to rolling with my partner at a party in CHI. I took time off work to go on the trip and the following day to recover. Party was on Sunday night. Friday night I took a single Roadtrip gummy and later a few doses of G. Saturday I hit a joint once midday and had a glass of wine that night. Sunday nothing but a smidge of caffeine in the morning.
- I ate well that day and a modest dinner, BodyArmour, and protein shake at about 6p
- the MDMA we used was from a uniquely trusted source that my partner had used before and his friend and his partners have all used for years. His friend is very* experienced with rolling and suggested a dose of 150mg which he routinely does and my partner has done. I’m a big guy (about 88kg) and certainly much larger than my partner and his friend.
The roll:
- we dosed at 10p all at once and my partner was rolling within 15-30 minutes with almost no lift. I felt the familiar flutter of anxiety with the lift I got the first few times and was so excited to roll. The least anxious about a roll than I had been before.
- However, instead of flipping over into the actual roll, the lift felt like it never stopped. I got ice cold, shaky, and anxious as shit. By the end of the first hour after dosing I needed to sit down and get off the floor. I got a little lightheaded and got some Gatorade which helped the physical symptoms but didn’t touch the anxiety.
- the two of them took me on a walk through the surrounding quiet neighborhood in the warm air and not being freezing cold was very helpful
- the friend’s roll hit while we were walking around holding hands (gayyyy)
- OKAY so I started feeling soft pulses of familiar roll sensation like a whisper beneath the anxiety during the walk but still no euphoria, no relaxation, nothing
- we went back inside thinking the music might help and it certainly did not. Never hit the crazy anxiety peak from before but I was trapped in my head, worrying about a million different things, dancing with my insanely hot boyfriend who was rolling his tits off. I was shivering and pissed off and getting sad with q20min whispers of “roll”
My thoughts:
- right before the anxiety peaked my partner (well within bounds and in line with the type of night we thought we were going to have) made out with another guy next to my CrashOut Booth (lol). Again, not intellectually a problem and has not been a problem on our previous rolls but that sent me into a spiral.
- I think blood sugar might be a consideration because the Gatorade helped the physical symptoms
- while I don’t know the dose on the pills I took before, I suspect that 150mg might be too high for me given my relatively low stimulant capacity and experience with MDMA itself. It’s just frustrating because both of them are smaller than me and my partner is only somewhat more experienced with MDMA than me
- I reviewed the safety pages available here and see that 150mg is over the recommended cap but as above I was with people who had done it multiple times and are much smaller than me
Was this an overdose? Were there other factors I’m not accounting for? Was it just bad luck? Will it happen again?
I just feel so disappointed and frustrated that this happened with my weekend and I’m still feeling the effects. Any advice would be welcome for this and future rolls. Thanks in advance!
Background:
- My first time rolling was with a pressed pill over the last new year and was incredible. Second attempt was March but I mistakenly was given a bump of coke (an angry story for another time perhaps) and the roll was killed. My third attempt and second roll was Pride this year using the same pill as the new year. I do not know the milligram dosing on the pills unfortunately but a friend estimates them at 100-125mg.
- I take Vyvanse for my ADHD at 10-20mg. The first and second rolls were preceded by such a dose but I didn’t take the MDMA until a couple hours after the Vyvanse’s window.
- I’m quite stimulant sensitive: my Vyvanse dose is low, I can only really take up to 30mg caffeine
This Weekend:
- So this weekend I was really looking forward to rolling with my partner at a party in CHI. I took time off work to go on the trip and the following day to recover. Party was on Sunday night. Friday night I took a single Roadtrip gummy and later a few doses of G. Saturday I hit a joint once midday and had a glass of wine that night. Sunday nothing but a smidge of caffeine in the morning.
- I ate well that day and a modest dinner, BodyArmour, and protein shake at about 6p
- the MDMA we used was from a uniquely trusted source that my partner had used before and his friend and his partners have all used for years. His friend is very* experienced with rolling and suggested a dose of 150mg which he routinely does and my partner has done. I’m a big guy (about 88kg) and certainly much larger than my partner and his friend.
The roll:
- we dosed at 10p all at once and my partner was rolling within 15-30 minutes with almost no lift. I felt the familiar flutter of anxiety with the lift I got the first few times and was so excited to roll. The least anxious about a roll than I had been before.
- However, instead of flipping over into the actual roll, the lift felt like it never stopped. I got ice cold, shaky, and anxious as shit. By the end of the first hour after dosing I needed to sit down and get off the floor. I got a little lightheaded and got some Gatorade which helped the physical symptoms but didn’t touch the anxiety.
- the two of them took me on a walk through the surrounding quiet neighborhood in the warm air and not being freezing cold was very helpful
- the friend’s roll hit while we were walking around holding hands (gayyyy)
- OKAY so I started feeling soft pulses of familiar roll sensation like a whisper beneath the anxiety during the walk but still no euphoria, no relaxation, nothing
- we went back inside thinking the music might help and it certainly did not. Never hit the crazy anxiety peak from before but I was trapped in my head, worrying about a million different things, dancing with my insanely hot boyfriend who was rolling his tits off. I was shivering and pissed off and getting sad with q20min whispers of “roll”
My thoughts:
- right before the anxiety peaked my partner (well within bounds and in line with the type of night we thought we were going to have) made out with another guy next to my CrashOut Booth (lol). Again, not intellectually a problem and has not been a problem on our previous rolls but that sent me into a spiral.
- I think blood sugar might be a consideration because the Gatorade helped the physical symptoms
- while I don’t know the dose on the pills I took before, I suspect that 150mg might be too high for me given my relatively low stimulant capacity and experience with MDMA itself. It’s just frustrating because both of them are smaller than me and my partner is only somewhat more experienced with MDMA than me
- I reviewed the safety pages available here and see that 150mg is over the recommended cap but as above I was with people who had done it multiple times and are much smaller than me
Was this an overdose? Were there other factors I’m not accounting for? Was it just bad luck? Will it happen again?
I just feel so disappointed and frustrated that this happened with my weekend and I’m still feeling the effects. Any advice would be welcome for this and future rolls. Thanks in advance!
