rosewaters
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Mar 9, 2013
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Hey, I hope im posting in the right place im new to this website. Ive signed up here cause im having a bad time with the aftermath of some heavy dosing.
Im 19 and recently for 9 months, I did so many drugs of every kind while travelling and was introduced and tasted too much of everything I touched.
(I am a creature of excess) Now im back home in the city, ive been back now for 5 months and haven't touched a drug since. I had some really bad trips, but one of them being so horrible that I was completely 100% in a hallucinated reality, I couldn't even see peoples faces, i didn't know up or down, i was just consumed in this horror, i thought i was dead and alone and nobody was real and just sky is the limit with this, truly awful if you've tripped bad imagine it 289897489389 times worse then any normal bad trip.
And all it was, ALL it was, was a little mdma, and about a cup of liquid THC. Finally i passed out and when i did i was out for 2 days and 2 nights, a Full 2 days until i could actual get up and function again.
They should of taken me to a fucking hospital but that's what you get when your in the middle of nowhere B.C camped out with a bunch of hippies who take acid like gummy bears.
Now i feel hazy all the time, i feel like i can go back into the vibration of my trip again and loose reality permanently (when i was high i thought i was in a different vibration, literally that i WAS a different life vibration) i almost feel delusional, i don't believe i am some creature or something, but im paranoid about weird things, now i have always had a streak of paranoia in me and i used to have severe depression about 2 years ago, but im paranoid even more then usual, i don't feel like i trust people, i feel like im on the edge of reality all the time, i have flashbacks every single day im alive, all the time, now they aren't so intense, so maybe they cant be considered flashbacks, but i feel all the time like im high
reality will kind of waiver, like the universe is tipping a little bit on its balance beam. I also catch things, in the corner of my eye all the time, and think something is there when its not. Its not a hallucination, but do you know when your slowly coming up on something, and the curtains, or a shadow, at a quick glance looks like something else, and for a split second you think it is.
Well this is happening every single day and its freaking me the fuck out.
The truth of it flat out is that i basically feel a bit high. I kind of feel like im about to trip out all the time. Like this continual rising will be the come up to schizophrenia.
Im too afraid to go to the doctor and have her tell me i have this and that blah blah, it will make my mind race more. I cant sit still anymore as it is.
Any advice from fellow trippers, will this truly pass? What to do in the meantime?
Im 19 and recently for 9 months, I did so many drugs of every kind while travelling and was introduced and tasted too much of everything I touched.
(I am a creature of excess) Now im back home in the city, ive been back now for 5 months and haven't touched a drug since. I had some really bad trips, but one of them being so horrible that I was completely 100% in a hallucinated reality, I couldn't even see peoples faces, i didn't know up or down, i was just consumed in this horror, i thought i was dead and alone and nobody was real and just sky is the limit with this, truly awful if you've tripped bad imagine it 289897489389 times worse then any normal bad trip.
And all it was, ALL it was, was a little mdma, and about a cup of liquid THC. Finally i passed out and when i did i was out for 2 days and 2 nights, a Full 2 days until i could actual get up and function again.
They should of taken me to a fucking hospital but that's what you get when your in the middle of nowhere B.C camped out with a bunch of hippies who take acid like gummy bears.
Now i feel hazy all the time, i feel like i can go back into the vibration of my trip again and loose reality permanently (when i was high i thought i was in a different vibration, literally that i WAS a different life vibration) i almost feel delusional, i don't believe i am some creature or something, but im paranoid about weird things, now i have always had a streak of paranoia in me and i used to have severe depression about 2 years ago, but im paranoid even more then usual, i don't feel like i trust people, i feel like im on the edge of reality all the time, i have flashbacks every single day im alive, all the time, now they aren't so intense, so maybe they cant be considered flashbacks, but i feel all the time like im high
reality will kind of waiver, like the universe is tipping a little bit on its balance beam. I also catch things, in the corner of my eye all the time, and think something is there when its not. Its not a hallucination, but do you know when your slowly coming up on something, and the curtains, or a shadow, at a quick glance looks like something else, and for a split second you think it is.
Well this is happening every single day and its freaking me the fuck out.
The truth of it flat out is that i basically feel a bit high. I kind of feel like im about to trip out all the time. Like this continual rising will be the come up to schizophrenia.
Im too afraid to go to the doctor and have her tell me i have this and that blah blah, it will make my mind race more. I cant sit still anymore as it is.
Any advice from fellow trippers, will this truly pass? What to do in the meantime?
