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KAYLA2010

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I hve been ao good and deleted all the drug dealers in my phone now got a new phone and verizon uploads all my old contcts drug dealers and now since i sent out a masss text on v
Day everyones like tour back and wanting to get me high...

Its like it follows you around always you jut cant get away the deug world consumes you.
 
Sorry to hear about the not so pleasant reminder. It really does follow you around. Such an annoying little nag.
 
Luckily that has happened to me yet :| but im sure it will... they'll be wondering where i went and hit me up sooner or later. Just stay strong.. you can do it! :] If i can, you can :p
 
Delete those contacts Kayla.. sometimes we need to take precautions to remove temptation <3
 
I really do they are already starting to suck me back in :( been out two days now but still havent done anything to bad...

But i kniw where it leads and i do not want that road so i am deleting them <3 thanks everyone.
 
That's the right thing to do. Hard, but right. Good on you though!

Keep strong, and be well!
 
Change the number again, only don't send out the mass-text. Alternatively, delete all of those numbers (heck, write them down on paper if you feel you need to, just get them out of the phone), get your number switched again, and then send out the mass-text. You can always substitute "crazy ex" for drug-dealer when explaining this to your phone company or your friends/family.

Drug-dealers, especially those with really addictive products, can be ruthless with regard to trying to get you back on their product. Being "strong-minded" is you not calling them, but if you can eliminate the other direction then do it!
 
^^Too true, fucking bastards. But, then again, I can't say they surprise me (e.g. in the same way as certain political parties/paradigms). I'd do what RL suggests btw

Anyways, just wanted to pop my head in here and say hi OP. Sending good vibes your way Kayla!!! Much <3 Take care of yourself grrrl :)
 
The avoidance technique didn't ever really work for be tbh. Whenever I get those calls now, I just say what is on my mind. Just remember, they are not your friends. You make your own decisions. Being unreasonably rash to these kinds of people doesn't really help either, and there will always be more dealers and liquor stores.
 
DexterMeth said:
The avoidance technique didn't ever really work for be tbh. Whenever I get those calls now, I just say what is on my mind. Just remember, they are not your friends. You make your own decisions. Being unreasonably rash to these kinds of people doesn't really help either, and there will always be more dealers and liquor stores.
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Yes, all very true, they are not calling you to congratulate you on your sobriety.
 
Most are saying they wouldnt get me high now off any opiates, they said after that last stunt non of my old friends i havent talked to/ dealers/ party chicks/ whores.... All of them congratulations to me for grtting out and not one so far after hearing i was clean will get me high off anything like oxy nothing... Just week which im thankful for.

Im glad i had to courage to just tell them im clean and im thinking of deleting and they were all like hell no dont delete me again i am never givin u shit.

All of them want out to and they r happy im not as bad as them anymore they sai i dont even fit anymore its crazy cause how different i dress now and how they are still the same ya know.... Apartments houses all the exact same people aitting in same places...

Its like its always there when you need it huh

Well im doing relatively well just smoking weed but no one will give me any other addicting drugs....they have actually been very supportive, i guess that after being eith people for so many years no matter what yall dis together you always have a bond... No matter what they do...
 
Yall are right though! I know best thing is to delete them, but fuuuuck. I feel like im slipping i just rather be with my friends... Ahhh i am just screaming inside debating! I hate this feeling like im stuck...again....



It just feels so good to be back in my element where i know everything and its safe knowing what to expect and teres no guessin just going along for an awesome ride..
 
Do what works for you. Find you own path. You'll probably end up deleting some of them, loosing contact with them over the years, while you'll keep close with others. Who knows. Just put yourself first. You, KAYLA2010, you are your first priority. PERIOD. It's that simple. Just stick to that, and whatever flows forth from such is all good.

I wish I had some herb to toke on :\ Surrrrre could use it. That being said... action plan time! :)
 
KAYLA2010 said:
Most are saying they wouldnt get me high now off any opiates, they said after that last stunt non of my old friends i havent talked to/ dealers/ party chicks/ whores.... All of them congratulations to me for grtting out and not one so far after hearing i was clean will get me high off anything like oxy nothing... Just week which im thankful for.
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Granted I don't know your dealers, but to me that sounds like they're slowly roping you back in. They're opiate dealers so they're educated in how addiction tends to play out. Appearing supportive so that you'll still buy the weed, which means that you'll have to meet up with them in person, which means that you'll be in a situation where you'll be within arms' distance of your DOC, and statistically speaking after a few transactions you'll want "just one more time."

These people are risking a lot, breaking the law on a daily basis. If they wanted to support rehabilitation, they'd work at a rehab, not as drug dealers. I've known a lot of dealers from a lot of areas in my day, and every dealer's heart sinks when they hear that a regular client quit, no matter how much they "fake it otherwise." It's all about the $$$.

Can you find a weed dealer that only deals weed?
 
RedLeader said:
These people are risking a lot, breaking the law on a daily basis. If they wanted to support rehabilitation, they'd work at a rehab, not as drug dealers.
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Hahaha, too true!

RedLeader said:
Can you find a weed dealer that only deals weed?
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YES! I made the mistake of taking this as some self evident advice, that it goes without saying, but RL is right to bring it up. This is a crucial move if you're gonna smoke some tree KAYLA2010
 
RedLeader said:
Granted I don't know your dealers, but to me that sounds like they're slowly roping you back in. They're opiate dealers so they're educated in how addiction tends to play out. Appearing supportive so that you'll still buy the weed, which means that you'll have to meet up with them in person, which means that you'll be in a situation where you'll be within arms' distance of your DOC, and statistically speaking after a few transactions you'll want "just one more time."

These people are risking a lot, breaking the law on a daily basis. If they wanted to support rehabilitation, they'd work at a rehab, not as drug dealers. I've known a lot of dealers from a lot of areas in my day, and every dealer's heart sinks when they hear that a regular client quit, no matter how much they "fake it otherwise." It's all about the $$$.

Can you find a weed dealer that only deals weed?
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Wow you are so right!!

I do have a friend that only deals weed and thats where i get my stuff but my friends were only suppossed to be in town a week or thats tight their not ecen my friends they all want to stay at my house fuuucked up....

Im moving on... Its not to hard for me. Since its early i guess its only been a week i think i dont even know the time right now...
 
You gotta watch hanging out around your DOC, I don't care of those people have been friends for ten years if they are still using they'll rope you back in. A lot of times its not even about the money, they just offer "just in case you want to do a little" and next thing you know you're back to using every day.

I've slipped so many times when it comes to my opiate addiction. Its funny how your brain will trick you into taking just a little. Right now I'm flirting with the devil myself, tried hanging out with a particular group of friends twice and both times I ended up taking a pain pill. I've thankfully been able to see the error of my ways and not use two days in a row, but I know if I keep going over there I'll start chasing again. So from now on I just won't go anymore as its a trigger.

My problem was the "weed man" living next door to these guys. I've told the weed man that he can either bring it to me from now on and I will pay extra for gas or I'll be buying it some place else. He's been understanding about the entire thing.

I have a pretty strong will and even I will slip right now when offered. Don't put yourself in an environment where it is around, you _will_ eventually get curious again. You'll think about how much the tolerance has gone down, and you'll get curious like I did. Even if you think you won't you will, like I said the mind can trick you.
 
Thank and you are right i know how bad temptation can be for recovery.

I am playing with the devil right now. I know im slipping i chose today to ignore and just be by myself and think over what i have done this past week and i realized, since being around them i have relapsed on pills and strted smoking daily weed again... I have already fell off i just need a little encouragment like yall are giving me to boost me in the right direction.

Thank you.
 
Just chill kayla. Just cause you smoked some tree doesn't mean you can or have to do some horse. If that what suits you, smoke weed. It the weed turn into heroin then don't, but if it's just weed, well... Enjoy. You are your most important priority! :) Don't beat yoself up. Of course, you might be better off without any mind altering substances, but you're still better off smoking some herb than banging some dope.
 
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