I'm going to document my return to using Seroquel XR for bi-polar maintenence therapy. Seroquel is an anti-psychotic with mood-stabilizing properties. I will post after significant changes\observations. So maybe 3 total over the span of the two weeks before I see my doctor again.
I went to the doctor and told him I stopped CT the Seroquel XR and Mirtazepine a while ago as I'm trying too loose weight, get a girlfriend, and do a bunch of other lifestyle changes all at once. I was in the middle of a manic episode for sure (and still am). He of course advised against doing this sort of thing in the future. I apologized many times. I don't really like the meds because I feel they make me tired. However they make me much more stable and normal. I need to settle for normal and tired.
Without these meds I've been feeling sooo good (for the most part). I lost 20 pounds in like a month. I've started riding my bike a lot and eating very healthy. I can ride 12 mph up and down hills for 30 minutes. Not much to you real cyclist but I feel like fucking Lance Armstrong. I'm 22 and want to get in good physical shape because I've never been before in my life. I look good now. And I know it. I can feel it. I'm doing good at work, my social skills and sense of humor is sharp, etc. I've become interested in women for the first time in over 2 years.
But I know that this is all very temporary. My mood swings are more severe. I get angry easily. My mind is going to fast for me to keep up with. I feel like I'm in the movie Limitless. Unlimited cognitive potential but time just seems to be skipping forward. I'm literally descending into insanity which is a profound psychedelic experience only the mentallly ill get to experience. 30 minutes before I wrote this I took 150 mg of Seroquel XR. Lots of alcohol and pot on board so this should hit pretty hard. 20 minutes later waiting...but to no avail so far.
So I do what any reasonable BL'er would do. I drink a couple more shot of Canadian Hunter and smoke another bowl hit.
This shit takes time to hit. But when it does it's a fucking ton of bricks. You better be near a bed I don't care if your just taking 25-50mg this shit is a Major Tranquilizer. Xanax is punk shit compared to Seroquel in terms of sedation. Be prepared to sleep atleast 8-10 hours and spend the following four in a daze after your first dose. But I'm fairly tuned up right now. And this Seroquel is not going to do shit for another hour most likely. It sure is killing my weed buzz which is why I take it before bed.
So I can feel the Seroquel now. Its been an hour. I'm going to fight it a bit because its a pleasant state for someone who is loosing their grip on their moods and emotions. I don't even care about being a zombie at this point. Knock me the fuck out please!!! I have Remeron and Klonopin around but I don't think I'll need either. Maybe one more shot and I'm fucking out. Will try to post a couple more sentences before I pass out... And here it goes; I'm truely feeling calm. Like I can sleep. I feel like a baby in their mothers womb. Ready for a nice cozy rest,
12 hours later I awake and feel like total shit. I'm too tired to smoke weed. Totally lobotomy is what it feel like first thing the morning. That's when you gotta get moving. I also ate several cookies in the middle of the night. I better not make that a habit.
I went to the doctor and told him I stopped CT the Seroquel XR and Mirtazepine a while ago as I'm trying too loose weight, get a girlfriend, and do a bunch of other lifestyle changes all at once. I was in the middle of a manic episode for sure (and still am). He of course advised against doing this sort of thing in the future. I apologized many times. I don't really like the meds because I feel they make me tired. However they make me much more stable and normal. I need to settle for normal and tired.
Without these meds I've been feeling sooo good (for the most part). I lost 20 pounds in like a month. I've started riding my bike a lot and eating very healthy. I can ride 12 mph up and down hills for 30 minutes. Not much to you real cyclist but I feel like fucking Lance Armstrong. I'm 22 and want to get in good physical shape because I've never been before in my life. I look good now. And I know it. I can feel it. I'm doing good at work, my social skills and sense of humor is sharp, etc. I've become interested in women for the first time in over 2 years.
But I know that this is all very temporary. My mood swings are more severe. I get angry easily. My mind is going to fast for me to keep up with. I feel like I'm in the movie Limitless. Unlimited cognitive potential but time just seems to be skipping forward. I'm literally descending into insanity which is a profound psychedelic experience only the mentallly ill get to experience. 30 minutes before I wrote this I took 150 mg of Seroquel XR. Lots of alcohol and pot on board so this should hit pretty hard. 20 minutes later waiting...but to no avail so far.
So I do what any reasonable BL'er would do. I drink a couple more shot of Canadian Hunter and smoke another bowl hit.
This shit takes time to hit. But when it does it's a fucking ton of bricks. You better be near a bed I don't care if your just taking 25-50mg this shit is a Major Tranquilizer. Xanax is punk shit compared to Seroquel in terms of sedation. Be prepared to sleep atleast 8-10 hours and spend the following four in a daze after your first dose. But I'm fairly tuned up right now. And this Seroquel is not going to do shit for another hour most likely. It sure is killing my weed buzz which is why I take it before bed.
So I can feel the Seroquel now. Its been an hour. I'm going to fight it a bit because its a pleasant state for someone who is loosing their grip on their moods and emotions. I don't even care about being a zombie at this point. Knock me the fuck out please!!! I have Remeron and Klonopin around but I don't think I'll need either. Maybe one more shot and I'm fucking out. Will try to post a couple more sentences before I pass out... And here it goes; I'm truely feeling calm. Like I can sleep. I feel like a baby in their mothers womb. Ready for a nice cozy rest,
12 hours later I awake and feel like total shit. I'm too tired to smoke weed. Totally lobotomy is what it feel like first thing the morning. That's when you gotta get moving. I also ate several cookies in the middle of the night. I better not make that a habit.
