back after a long time i missed u guys

[CyaLuvyaBye]

I don’t understand
I’m at a loss
I’m scared
I’m confused
And i'm angry
I ask why
Why lead me on
Why say what you say
Why search my eyes with yours
As if reaching inside my very soul
How dare you look and drink from my soul
… Then tell me it means nothing
How dare you steal the words from my songs
… and say it’s your words to me
How dare you hold me as if you never want to let go
How dare you scold me when you feel i've strayed from my path
How dare you pretend to care when you know how I feel and tease me about it
How dare you let me love you, let me need you, let me long for your touch
How dare you
Why send me these songs, these looks, these messages
Why confuse me to believe something I have never believed so fully
…then tell me it isn’t so
I don’t understand
I don’t understand
How can you love me so much and not want me?
Am I ugly?
Out of your own mouth you say I am not
Do you lie?
Am I cursed to be lied to for the rest of my life
Is this a sick game of fate?
Is this the best there is?
Am I cursed to be loved only by the unlovable?
Is it me?
Is it you?
I don’t understand
I don’t understand
I want to hate you
For only then will the pain be released
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i thought it was you i needed nevertheless i have learnt thru the pain i needed me
[This message has been edited by CyaLuvyaBye (edited 13 December 2000).]

 

[cherub]

Hey hun,, give it time.
I know heart aches hurt alot but in time it will get easier,, never the same,, you grow and learn and go from there but it does eventually get better
((((((((Hugs))))))
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Just takes one angel to change a life
~~~~CHERUB~~~~
Aka: Mommyhen
~I still belive in your eyes~-Gigi D'Agostino
~~~I can be your Wendy, and you can be my Peter Pan. And we can fly to Neverneverland~~~

 

[CyaLuvyaBye]

thanx darl but dont worry wrote this a while ago while ive been offline but its all ok now ya see he was just scared i cud never love him as much as i love him and hed loose me oohh wat a smooshy boy he is.
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i thought it was you i needed nevertheless i have learnt thru the pain i needed me