blakmike
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Apr 9, 2011
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I can't even think anymore so I need a caring mod to help me out by deletin this part of my post and deleting my user account for good please just because I would appreciate it and I apologize for not being able to find the ask a mod button but my thoughts and brain to eyes/fingers connection is almost completely gone for a bit. Oh yeah, and please move this to the appropriate forum and give it a suitable title.
MDPV is the worst poison I've ever had the fortune to consume. 500mg consumed by vaporization over the course of like 12 hours last nite, probly not that much but some is wasted in charred blobs on pieces of foil and if I looked to the side of my computer I could probably see 15 mgs or so laying in piles.
When you smoke this shit you're inhaling toxic fumes into your lungs and who knows what that might have caused. Anyhoo the rush has the intensity of crack with the speed flavor, followed by intense paranoia and anxiety and despair, yet the rush would bring you back over and over as you could feel my brain burning, yet not wanting to admit it to myself.
Anyhoo, Im left with no coordination in my hands, a kind of hopeful feeling that things will get better over time, and a feeling of just living a nightmare that I would never want to repeat. But I'm a hardhead, the only reason I bothered to get my hands on such stupid shit is because of the horror stories that I've seen recounted on these forums.
Please trust me on this guys, you don't want to touch this poison, smoking it is like a 6 hour crystal meth buzz compressed into 5 seconds from a crazy ass rush htat is blisssful straight to the comedown of speeed, and it all adds up, the more rushes you get the more horrible the paranoia, paralysis, and anxiety.
Not to be smoked or injected, really not to be consumed by anyone ever. I wouldn't wish this state on my worst enemy, and any sane person would go to a mental health hospital for a benzodiazepene bracer, unfortunately I've alwys subscrib edd to the mantra: you do the crime you do the time. Only I've never done a crime like this before in my life.
the only thing: I could compare this unease with is something Ive only seen described on these forums and by my crazy friend, like a personal 8ball of molly consumed for however longit takes to deplete your brain of every bit of serotonin that was in it to begin with.
any suggestions are welcome but I'm asking a mod to erase my member because of the paranoia in my head right now, and I never get paranoid in the middle of a marathon crack session or a 6 day crystal binge; that was my problem--I thought i was hardcore and vaporizing this nasty little molecule was just as bad for me as anyone ever said.
Please don't do what I just did. I will be fine with time, I finally can make my mouth work in complete sentences and thank the person who told me to throw what was left in the toilet, while I still could.
Thankfully I can't make my hand operate my lighter to do any more hits for a bit. Of the little pice that didn't make it in the toilet.
Ihave drank some milk and alot of water and plan on yogurt and popsicles next followed by outside time under the cover of darkness
MDPV is the worst poison I've ever had the fortune to consume. 500mg consumed by vaporization over the course of like 12 hours last nite, probly not that much but some is wasted in charred blobs on pieces of foil and if I looked to the side of my computer I could probably see 15 mgs or so laying in piles.
When you smoke this shit you're inhaling toxic fumes into your lungs and who knows what that might have caused. Anyhoo the rush has the intensity of crack with the speed flavor, followed by intense paranoia and anxiety and despair, yet the rush would bring you back over and over as you could feel my brain burning, yet not wanting to admit it to myself.
Anyhoo, Im left with no coordination in my hands, a kind of hopeful feeling that things will get better over time, and a feeling of just living a nightmare that I would never want to repeat. But I'm a hardhead, the only reason I bothered to get my hands on such stupid shit is because of the horror stories that I've seen recounted on these forums.
Please trust me on this guys, you don't want to touch this poison, smoking it is like a 6 hour crystal meth buzz compressed into 5 seconds from a crazy ass rush htat is blisssful straight to the comedown of speeed, and it all adds up, the more rushes you get the more horrible the paranoia, paralysis, and anxiety.
Not to be smoked or injected, really not to be consumed by anyone ever. I wouldn't wish this state on my worst enemy, and any sane person would go to a mental health hospital for a benzodiazepene bracer, unfortunately I've alwys subscrib edd to the mantra: you do the crime you do the time. Only I've never done a crime like this before in my life.
the only thing: I could compare this unease with is something Ive only seen described on these forums and by my crazy friend, like a personal 8ball of molly consumed for however longit takes to deplete your brain of every bit of serotonin that was in it to begin with.
any suggestions are welcome but I'm asking a mod to erase my member because of the paranoia in my head right now, and I never get paranoid in the middle of a marathon crack session or a 6 day crystal binge; that was my problem--I thought i was hardcore and vaporizing this nasty little molecule was just as bad for me as anyone ever said.
Please don't do what I just did. I will be fine with time, I finally can make my mouth work in complete sentences and thank the person who told me to throw what was left in the toilet, while I still could.
Thankfully I can't make my hand operate my lighter to do any more hits for a bit. Of the little pice that didn't make it in the toilet.
Ihave drank some milk and alot of water and plan on yogurt and popsicles next followed by outside time under the cover of darkness
