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Mental Health Attempted suicide

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A while back I was tryin to stop my 16mg, 4-5 times a day dilaudid injection habit and even after a month of tapering and staring at my daughters pictures, for reasons to live, I had had enough and thought I could not deal with life anymore. I didn't want to leave a mess for my cunt.. I mean wife so I gathered my new script of klonopin. 60- .5mgs and 12 of her .5's and downed them with a Heineken. 18 hours later I woke up in a puddle of piss, groggy but breathing. I now have a script for 10mg Norco which I am going to use to taper off of the Dilaudid. 4-5 of them and 5-6 grams of Kratom makes it tolerable. I am trying to get down to a Norco addiction, if that makes sense. I have been through that and with Kratom, that WD is nothing compared to a dilaudid injection WD. My veins are SREAMING!!!!! for a shot but I am fighting as best I can.


My point to this post is have fun, but remember that there is always a price to pay at some point and most importantly......
STAY AWAY FROM THE NEEDLES!!!!!
Hell yeah they make for a great time and IMO there is nothing better, but that demon is watching you and laughing knowing that he WILL be paid his price.

Have fun everyone just stay within your limits and shitcan those syringes.


Smutt

BTW, I felt 1/2 drunk for about 48 hrs after the Klonopin dose, buas far as I know, that is it
 
I'm happy to know that, although you attempted suicide, you're still with us.

This post is more appropriate for a Blog entry; please consider positing it there, as you're not explicitly asking for advice or posing a question of any type.

I appreciate your sharing your story with us; Because the thread warrants no discussion really, though, I'm going to go ahead and close it for you. If you have any questions regarding this action, please contact me via PM (use the orange link in my signature for the sake of ease).

STAY SAFE! I'm really proud of you for the efforts your making to rid yourself of your tremendously deep opioid addiction. 16mg hydromorphone IV is a lot, as I'm sure you know!!

Be will, Smutt.... Much love.
~ Vaya
 
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