Mental Health Attempted suicide again, I can't take this hell anymore

[December Flower]

Yes I spent 5 years laboriously trying to improve my life. The escalation of severe depression in the last couple of years arose out of this exhaustion for no benefit. It is a state of learned helplessness. It is also an inability to cope with 6 mental health diagnoses, along with physical health issues.

If it didn't help you then it's not an option, ofc. But it does help many.
"Exhaustion for no benefit", that's a bit egocentric... for me the benefit is helping others
Sorry. I hope you get better and you will find something to help you out of the depression

 

[December Flower]

I don't think there's anything wrong with this not pulling punches. Candid didn't mince words when he told us he tried to end his life. Sometimes brutal honesty requires brutal honesty about something as irrevocable as ending your own life.

I'm sorry, I lack the ability to "speak through the flower"

 

[Foreigner]

Typically people who talk about suicide are not going to follow through.

That's a popular myth that is untrue. A lot of suicidal people communicate their problems for years before they finally do it, while some just do it silently. I have personally seen people die in my community who warned others they were going to do it. It happens. A colleague of mine who lost his eyesight said he no longer had a reason to live, told everyone in his life that he wanted to die asap. Nobody did emergency intervention, they just kept coddling him unprofessionally. Then one day he jumped off a bridge. Everyone was shocked and bereaved... and I was like, really? You don't remember him telling us???

 

[deficiT]

Tried to hang myself, family member heard me wailing beforehand and came in to hold my body up. I can't take this hell anymore, I know all of the causes of it. I have been relentlessly trying to overcome just some of them for 6 years flat out and I only get worse with time. It's completely unbearable. Every fibre of my being yearns for death. Please God take my life, I don't want to live in this hellfire called planet earth any longer.

I am glad to see that you have at least pushed forward enough to make it to today.

Sometimes, just getting by is all you can do. But on the days when you have some energy, try your best to dream, follow your imagination into what you perceive as an ideal life. Jot your ideas down on paper, brainstorm some goals and first steps, flesh out your grand idea until it's something attainable and achievable.

Even if you don't at the moment have the capacity to make goals or take steps, find something you can enjoy to distract yourself. Hobbies and the like are crucial to maintaining even a minor semblance of positive mental health. Go on a hike. Listen to some new music. The little shit adds up.

These are all probably cliches that you've heard before, but it doesn't hurt to try some of these things.

 

[Jabberwocky]

That's a popular myth that is untrue. A lot of suicidal people communicate their problems for years before they finally do it, while some just do it silently.

Can't agree more.

Popular myth. There is truth to it... but many misidentify what that communication might be or when it comes.

Personally, I've already warned enough people, I don't even bring it up anymore because they don't get happy when I talk about it... I feel they should already know... and I don't get any pat on the backs anymore about it. I am in no danger, but I would assume it wouldn't be a surprise to anyone at this point, and stopped talking about it awhile ago.

Now, it's just me and myself again. Isolation is the most pertinent warning... but also the least to be recognized.

 

[darvocet21]

That's a popular myth that is untrue. A lot of suicidal people communicate their problems for years before they finally do it, while some just do it silently. I have personally seen people die in my community who warned others they were going to do it. It happens. A colleague of mine who lost his eyesight said he no longer had a reason to live, told everyone in his life that he wanted to die asap. Nobody did emergency intervention, they just kept coddling him unprofessionally. Then one day he jumped off a bridge. Everyone was shocked and bereaved... and I was like, really? You don't remember him telling us???

I'm glad that you pointed that out clearly I was teetering on the edge myself and I really appreciate the opportunity to go in and just remove posts that are so unhelpful. Disturbing