I agree with your viewpoint, and I enjoyed the article. I function very well on hard drugs. I recently had my house searched, lost my state job and am looking at two felonies and a handful of other charges, for the first time. At 47. Ex-husbands current partner called turned me in. Humiliating and, while ultimately my fault, I am struggling and feeling way too sorry for myself.
It just sucks, I didn't do anything wrong, like as in actual right and wrong. Plus, once people know, that's all they see. That's all you are. I lay and screamed like a little whiny bitch for two days I was and am not noble or one to bear things without significant complaints. I just spent like $20,000 on my mouth getting teeth pulled and Bone put in for implants and I don't want to f****** my teeth even more and plus I hate Suboxone so that's not an option. Possibly subutex but it really doesn't do it for me I had like seven of them in 2 days and really you're only supposed to need like one a day right? And then methadone's even harder to get off than heroin but then my friend gave me some to try it and I think it might actually be well I mean you don't ever get off it but short of going down to Mexico and screaming cartel cartel cartel I don't know how else I'm going to be able to use heroin so I think I'm going to go to the methadone clinic tomorrow. And If I can ever pull my head out of my ass from this far enough to have any sort of motivation I am going to b**** to a lot of people about the prison system in our country it is f****** disgusting and atrocious and pointless and if I try really hard I have to be able to do something but I just hope I can f****** get through this. Drug should be legal it's just stupid.
I really miss sleeping I haven't slept in a week. I haven't gotten out of bed but I haven't slept it's s***** and I know it's only for like a couple weeks but really the psychological aftermath is worse and it really doesn't get better. Supposedly after 8 months but I've only ever tried it before I think three and then 25 years and I am doubtful about that I think people who say that are just f****** lying to themselves or me or both