arguing with inner monologue

[ronniecoleman]

does anyone else fight with their inner monologue for control to make decisions. i have had this for a while and slowly its turned into more of an agreement than fighting against each other. whenever i really try to break it down and question my inner monologue it gets extremely mad and changes tone into a very deep demonic voice. i cant tell if this is just another method my inner monologue is trying to use to manipulate me with fear. its very convincing and i let it do most of my speaking in public. i do not think its me whatever is in my head, but its hard to tell as it likes to linger in my backround thoughts pretending to be me. we have really started to get along recently, but i cannot seem to ever control it when i get emotional. i like to deem it as a tool from evolution to help us survive my making split second decisions. i do not believe it is god or the devil even if it can micic other voices or alien sounds. it’s definitely strange having a passenger in my head especially when we disagree. it makes it very difficult to have my way by using forms of manipulation and it seems to really hold on to grudges and focus more on the negatives of life. is anyone else similar

 

[20PrivacyIsOurRight21]

Can't say I experience exactly that. There's conversation happening in my mind but they don't have voices or characteristics. Do you have schizophrenia?

 

[deficiT]

As someone with schizoaffective disorder, I have definitely dealt with this type of thing in the past. Though I am lucky that the medication I'm on takes care of this kind of thing for the most part. But I have had voices that have led me to either delusions of persecution or delusions of grandeur.

 

[MsDiz]

Sounds a little like DID -dissociative identify disorder (used to be known as multiple personality disorder). Some people have amnesia when switching (different personalities coming to the foreground) and some people don’t. If you search it up and see what you think.

Definitely something you should be mentioning to your dr/therapist as they will be able to help.

 

[ronniecoleman]

Can't say I experience exactly that. There's conversation happening in my mind but they don't have voices or characteristics. Do you have schizophrenia?

not that i know of but ive never went to a professional. its strange, it talks for me and itself. almost like its having a conversation with itself, but i can differentiate it as it speaks at a higher tone, and when it speaks for me the tone drops slighty. im pretty sure it talks for me because useally i agree with the lower tone as it shares the same feelings as me

 

[ronniecoleman]

As someone with schizoaffective disorder, I have definitely dealt with this type of thing in the past. Though I am lucky that the medication I'm on takes care of this kind of thing for the most part. But I have had voices that have led me to either delusions of persecution or delusions of grandeur.

its not a problem for the most part it just makes it very difficult for me to trust others especially my girlfriend which has led to multiple problems in our relationship. i do find use out of it and dont want to get rid of it, maybe just suppress it.

 

[ronniecoleman]

Sounds a little like DID -dissociative identify disorder (used to be known as multiple personality disorder). Some people have amnesia when switching (different personalities coming to the foreground) and some people don’t. If you search it up and see what you think.

Definitely something you should be mentioning to your dr/therapist as they will be able to help.

it is extremely hard to keep track of the conversations, but im pretty sure its just one voice in my head narrating me and it’s self. i have two voices in my head but i identify with one. but again its very hard to remember unless i really focus whats going on in my head, then its clear there is two voices or one idk.

 

[MsDiz]

it is extremely hard to keep track of the conversations, but im pretty sure its just one voice in my head narrating me and it’s self. i have two voices in my head but i identify with one. but again its very hard to remember unless i really focus whats going on in my head, then its clear there is two voices or one idk.

Yeah, it’s definitely something I would bring to a professional. There are some good strategies for managing your thoughts that a professional can teach you.

 

[20PrivacyIsOurRight21]

not that i know of but ive never went to a professional. its strange, it talks for me and itself. almost like its having a conversation with itself, but i can differentiate it as it speaks at a higher tone, and when it speaks for me the tone drops slighty. im pretty sure it talks for me because useally i agree with the lower tone as it shares the same feelings as me

What exactly is "it" like an entity? You should definitely talk to someone with experience on this subject! You'll be okay

 

[G_Chem]

Yea my inner monologue is my own voice. I do sometimes here voices from “others” but usually only tripping and often only if I ask a question. If I had an inner monologue that felt not my own, which had control of me, that’d be a cause for concern in my book.

-GC

 

[ronniecoleman]

I’m much more comfortable with the thoughts I get with daily cannabis. There are those that advise against it. I advise against all psychiatric meds. They’ll still force them on you once you start.

ya i do not want that at all, weed really helps me understand whats happening inside my head.

 

[20PrivacyIsOurRight21]

Yea my inner monologue is my own voice. I do sometimes here voices from “others” but usually only tripping and often only if I ask a question. If I had an inner monologue that felt not my own, which had control of me, that’d be a cause for concern in my book.

-GC

I'd pay for that experience of hearing voices in my head. But the grass is always greener.

 

[ronniecoleman]

Yea my inner monologue is my own voice. I do sometimes here voices from “others” but usually only tripping and often only if I ask a question. If I had an inner monologue that felt not my own, which had control of me, that’d be a cause for concern in my book.

-GC

see its always there but i dont notice it unless i ask it a question or listen to it actively. the strange part is i can do this sober and on weed but with weed its not as fuzzy

 

[deficiT]

I’m much more comfortable with the thoughts I get with daily cannabis. There are those that advise against it. *snipped for bad HR*

Advising someone against all psychiatric meds is bad harm reduction. I'm gonna edit that part out of your post.

OP should speak with a doctor about any and all treatment going forward. That is, if they find this symptom of theirs to cause them problems.

 

[ronniecoleman]

Advising someone against all psychiatric meds is bad harm reduction. I'm gonna edit that part out of your post.

OP should speak with a doctor about any and all treatment going forward. That is, if they find this symptom of theirs to cause them problems.

is it true that they force you on the meds? i want to try an option like that but im scared it wont work and i dont want to be forced to take meds

 

[MsDiz]

is it true that they force you on the meds? i want to try an option like that but im scared it wont work and i dont want to be forced to take meds

Unless you were a danger to yourself or others you would not be given medication against your will. (That’s Irish law but it’s pretty universal I would have thought).

 

[deficiT]

is it true that they force you on the meds? i want to try an option like that but im scared it wont work and i dont want to be forced to take meds

I have never heard of a scenario where you would be forced to take medication, no.

 

[ions]

Prison. If you don't take your pills, they give you an injection.