I'm the kind of person who takes on a dark lifestyle somewhat. Not dark as in I wear black clothing everyday with black makeup listening to doom metal and considering myself evil like teens like to do >.> Kinda like that Doorsy Jim Morrison, Aleister Crowley, Nietzsche dark... I don't know how to explain it really. Anyways, DXM and K seem like my best bet. I've heard K to be the least damaging of DXM, K, and PCP. I would LOVE to get it and try a mid-high dose for my first time, which I think I could handle knowing that I used to go over the gram range of DXM. Sadly, I've built tolerance to the point of the DXM gram range only producing high 2nd-low 3rd plateau effects. Sometimes it doesn't even go past 2nd. Surprisingly I'm still a fast responding, snappy, and according to my friends, intelligent to the point of being threatening or scary. Not to say I haven't taken damage. I believe DXM use like that will fry a brain. Think it had anything to do with the access to weed and green tea(I think they're both neuroprotectants?) everytime? DXM is a favorite option once again though. 300mg Wellbutrin a day with 1st plateau doses gives me no real dissociation, but an energetic opiate body high with a very strong mind fuck. It's still dark, even though I feel much stronger emotions now on it. I can only describe these emotions with pictures and colors. My favorite once feels like a purple mixed with red and pink. Also, low first plateau doses are supposedly an anti-depressant much more effective than what our legal drug dealers give us. It is also supposedly a neuroprotectant and nootropic. The above therapuetic doses, but low psychoactives doses are supposedly like a smart drug. DXM is already classed as an SNRI.(Serotonin Norepenephrine Reuptake Inhibitor) Other effects include increased mental clarity, faster thinking, increased empathy and ego loss. It's still DEFINITELY dark though.
alienation - You suggested DPH. The sedation makes me feel very funky and I hate it. It's not like the LSA sedation, it's a different sedation. Also, I do like the darkness of it. My first trip didn't seem really sedated for some reason, now it's VERY sedating. I have maybe 600mg total in my medicine cabinet right now. Don't think I'll be taking it anytime soon. DPH definitely had a very dark feel. It was very weird and psychotic feeling. It was basically a temporary drug-induced schizophrenia. Voices, people who're not there, strange sensations, smells, and tastes.
A lot of you have said MXE. I'm not asking for a vendor because it's against rules, but how could I get this? Like, maybe people at parties have it? You could simply say, "You probably have to find a vendor." I think it's a research chemical actually. Also, I saw dpt suggestions. Could someone explain what it is? I would love to try anything psychedelic/dissociative as long as it's safe for occasional use. Come to think of it, I think dissociatives are my favorite. I hate when people say they trap you inside your head rather than release you from it. DXM is the only dissociative I've done, but it always let me look at the world in a different way. Without DXM, I wouldn't be as much into philosophy, spirituality, my OWN life, the universe, abstract thinking, creations and inventions, art, literature, music, etc... as I am now.