April 8th 2009

Had a good night. Spent time with girlfriend. Breathes life into me. Never laughed and smiled so much in an evening before. Felt like a child. Felt complete. Felt right. Felt perfect. Looked at self in mirror and was happy at what stared back for once. Dropped her off before. On way home, listened to some trance and smoked a cigarette. Felt a feeling that I have not felt in long time. Feeling is called joy.
Have finally achieved happiness it seems.... Have always said once I achieved happiness.....

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Will see how I feel in the morning before making final decision.


"For my own part, regret nothing. Have lived life, free from compromise ... and step into the shadow now without complaint."

 

Isn't that feeling great. I've been having that feeling lately too. Just so smitten. Hopefully it lasts for you.

 

What final decision?%)

 

PillThrill, feeling is amazing indeed. Final decision to cease existence mariacallas. Opted to stick around, would hurt to many and want to grow old with soul mate.

 

Glad to hear it. Savour the good times, they're what make life worth living. It's trite, but (I'm told) it's true.

 

if you ever start to contemplate that final decision again you should just think of what it would do to Anne and (to a lesser extent) us here at Bluelight.

I know I for one would be very, very upset upon hearing of your death mein broham.

 

You are gay. Why don't you write some poetry and go to slam competition?

 

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lol owned