Apathetic and anti social

[Allein]

Hi all, just looking for a bit of advice,

I had a rough patch last year that led to a few weeks in a mantal health unit and a few months off work, anxiety as well as crippling depression got the better of me after a long period struggling with it.

I'm back at work, have managed to get off meds and have largely cleaned up my act with the booze etc.

I'm worried I'm slipping back into depression because I feel so tired all the time despite sleeping reasonably, certainly much better than I had been.

I'm struggling with any motivation and feel generally apathetic to most things. I have no social life of my own, only going out with my partner as I have failed to maintain relationships with friends or make new ones.

I know I should take some excercise but I'm struggling to get to work on time let alone get up early and walk the dog ! If I feel like this without booze and chems what the point in keeping clean, in the past at least I felt good some of the time.

Any advice gratefully recieved

 

[villian]

I understand 100% where you are coming from.

How long have you been clean?

You will get over this bump, it takes awhile for our brain to reach homeostasis again after getting sober (PAWS).. I promise you it does get better though it just takes time.

I know you feel like you can't be bothered to do anything, but exercise really is the answer.. it takes some time to start working but you will start feeling better. How is your diet?

Trust me when I tell you it will get better.. I know chems/booze can seem like a good idea but really we are just fucking with our brain chemistry even more if we do that.

 

[Allein]

^^^
Thanks,

I've been into stims for a long time but mainly weekend binging, the last couple of years that got out of hand and I was using a fair bit, 3-4 days not sleeping etc. The drinking had escalated to everyday and enough that my doctor was concerned about me stopping.

I havent had any stims since April last year and stopped drinking NYE, although the last couple of weeks I have slipped up a bit, my diet isbnt to bad but I can tell I'm starting to over eat as I did before, I'm not badly overweigth but I would be happier to be lighter.

 

[Legerity]

It's normal for there to be a period of adjustment after stopping substance use. Not all problems go away when the drug use stops, now you have an opportunity to focus on mental health and on finding things that make your life more engaging (i.e. friendships, as you mentioned).

Even if now is a difficult period it doesn't mean that this is what the rest of your life will stay like

 

[Allein]

I guess in the past happyness and taking drugs went hand in hand. My younger years revolved around weekends of parties and whilst i didnt drink I had a big hash habit for much longer than a care to think about.

It all feels a bit empty now, espeocially after the wheels well and truley came off last year.

I'm going to have dig in and try to make some bigger changes, but thats just words in many ways I just can't be bothered.... I can feel the self loathing setting in !