Anybody just gave up ?

[PurpleKush1]

I haven't posted in 6 months. The first 3 i was too busy getting slurred on benzos alcohol and ambien, and the second 3 i spent with a goldigging hoe who used me all the way. Learned the hard way. Anyways what a guy gone do after he is single ? He is gonna usually search for women. Like not always, but often. So what i did and the result- all friendzones, or girls who i can't date.

They all come up with that <<dark energy>> bullshit well what the hell do you expect bitch from a 20 yo im still addicted to kpins and relapsed into xanax which i had stopped and i wont go starting to explain my 4 year long history of Blow,Crack,Ice,Weed,Alcohol,Adderal and Opiate abuse. For a drug user, you can tell str8 up i used to do hard shit, and even for a non drug user i guess i got that vibe. Skinny, lumps in the cheeks, dressed in black often, droppy eyes, etc. So yeah i look like shit. I wont change it, i dont care.

I just came to the Conclusion that there is no point searching, living on false hopes - I look so bad? Then fuck you all. Anybody else feeling like this? I'm curious.

 

[pofacedhoe]

well if you act moody and are monged out on benzo's why do you think that would be attractive?

sort your life/mood out and then you'll attract more sane people.

why did you get gold digged/gold dug? because benzo's make people careless and stupid (i speak from experience) and when you are mentally slowed down its easy to trick you.

get off the benzos/zdrugs. they are THE worst addiction. crack is moreish but it wont leave you a mental wreck like benzo withdrawl

 

[PurpleKush1]

well if you act moody and are monged out on benzo's why do you think that would be attractive?

sort your life/mood out and then you'll attract more sane people.

why did you get gold digged/gold dug? because benzo's make people careless and stupid (i speak from experience) and when you are mentally slowed down its easy to trick you.

get off the benzos/zdrugs. they are THE worst addiction. crack is moreish but it wont leave you a mental wreck like benzo withdrawl

Im clean off any kind of stimulants since halloween. I know benzos aare fucked. I started fucking with them back in 2012, but it wasn't an addiction id just pop some xanax get drunk smoke bud and sometimes put a lil stimulants in the mix. Now ive been on them for more then half a year. Back in end 2013 i was taking 12-15 .5 footballs a day. Im down to 4x0.5 clonazepam.

I ididnt take any xanax for almost two months, but since i broke this bitch up i find myself popping it more and more because i'm tired of the bullshit. Yes you are right, when i met her i was taking loads of xanax, and as soon as i switched to clonazepam and starting tapering (which is a long hellish process) i realised what she was and after some bullshit i wont go in as its boring and unnecessary broke her off. I was like now immma find me a nice girl,, but shit this is impossible. They all want to be <<friends>>. Well guess what i don't. My life is good honestly got my flat,got a full time job, but I stopped going out, can't stand peoples bs and fakeness anymore. But why get off benzos? They help with not giving a shit,having no libido, and only thiking $$$. Thats what im interested in now.

Since I realised my destiny is to be alone, i'd rather make loads of cash. Money wont make you happy, but it'll make you forget you are unhappy.

 

[llama112]

But why get off benzos? They help with not giving a shit,having no libido, and only thiking $$$. Thats what im interested in now.

Since I realised my destiny is to be alone, i'd rather make loads of cash. Money wont make you happy, but it'll make you forget you are unhappy.

I hope you know this won't last in the long run.

I mean, you're on benzos right now and you're still wanting something else (relationship? friendship? I dunno... but you made a post in SLR so you obviously want something you don't have right now). What makes you think that staying like this, you'll all of a sudden be content?
And, in the long run, it'll get worse. Why not clean yourself up now instead of later?

And you're right, money won't make you happy. It won't make you forget you're unhappy either. Why do you think there are depressed millionaires?

 

[PurpleKush1]

I hope you know this won't last in the long run.

I mean, you're on benzos right now and you're still wanting something else (relationship? friendship? I dunno... but you made a post in SLR so you obviously want something you don't have right now). What makes you think that staying like this, you'll all of a sudden be content?
And, in the long run, it'll get worse. Why not clean yourself up now instead of later?

And you're right, money won't make you happy. It won't make you forget you're unhappy either. Why do you think there are depressed millionaires?

Yeah i do want to have normal R/L but im not chasing it forcing it and losing my time overall because it's impossible. I'll get off benzos eventually but that's for other reasons and that is maybe. I legit need them anyways so why not stay on them. I won't bne content, but neither unhappy and desperate and etc. I'll just stay depressed like ive been for a year now. If i ever make it to millionaire, ill be too busy nodding than being preocupied with hoes and all that bullshit.