If you're talking opiates then yes,Hmmm... this is very interesting as I wonder if there is anything I could accomplish completely sober for months that I could not accomplish otherwise. I wonder if sobriety isn't enough but we need better environments..........
I feel I deserve a better environment for sure and not sure if just being completely sober is overrated, since I really have freed my mind to enjoy buzzes with no guilt as long as it's not too unhealthy.
I think we'd need to do a whole new thread about these better environments unless there is already one. Psychedelics helped with unhooking the desire to get "fucked up" from my desire to "explore my mind". But even then a wrong environment can bring it all crashing down and then there is that liquor store on the corner not too far away. I know I can vape pot everyday and not fuck myself, but alcohol...... if I let myself go on that then I feel that non-worthiness for sure. I never feel non-worthy with things I know won't fuck me, even if they are habit forming. Got to have that coffee every morning, just don't be mixing it with the booze or the cocaine!If you're talking opiates then yes,
changing your environment/location can do wonders.
If you don't know where to get something, you might just follow through with sobriety.
But this addiction is patient. It waits for the right moment, for the right situation.
It might wait for months, and suddenly you have the chance to hook up,
and before you know it you're deep into addiction again
The best spot would be somewhere out of reach. Maybe a very small village?
Or you just camp out in the forest.
If anyone has issues with self-worth, try to do good things, it helps like a fucking miracle.
I always referred to myself as a piece of shit, until I started doing musical therapy & psycho-social care.
This really helped me so much. Doing good things makes you understand why all these do-gooders run around with a big smile all the time.
It's amazing.
I have had thoughts like that before when life’s possibilities came to a dead-end. The thing that I do enjoy about currently being on opiate replacement therapy is that unlike active usage, I don’t feel so wildly unbalanced from day to day and having my thoughts consumed by trying to score. My life hasn’t improved much at all. I’m struggling, but staying away from using I’m not so unbalanced which is really no way to live.It’s strange, I don’t know if it’s my mind just trying to give me another excuse to keep using.
I want to quit but sometimes when I’m trying part of me says I don’t deserve to be happy and sober and I should keep using.