timetohunt
Bluelighter
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So I am perfectly understanding that anything involving coordination and relaxing is going to be very rough for a few months.
I know I won't be able to play for awhile. My biggest W/D and PAWS enemy is anxiety as even before I got wrapped up in opiates 10 years ago I had generalized anxiety issues. I never went for meds for anxiety back then because the opiates were taking care of that better than anything I'd ever tried. Like a lot of people I entered the opiate world because of bad discs, of course in hindsight I now know I could and should have learned to live with it. Thus; I'm basically a junkie now.
I'm going to power through this first 6 weeks or so in hope that the physical issues of WD will be well behind me. Even waking up and not looking for a fix will seem like a victory.
My main worry is ever being able to play my instrument again. I'm mainly a bassist, a damn good one as it's one of the few things I can actually boast about. I also write and collaborate with like 4 different groups. Some even are signed to labels. In the ensuing PAWS I have this fear that my hands will no longer be steady and by brain won't relax enough to be successful.
I'm so scared because while it can be a bit of a business and grind at times, it is what makes me truly happy. No music making = unhappy. Unhappy = virtual death.
Any thoughts? Anyone been in or is in a similar situation?
If I was a federal employee like I once was, I wouldn't nearly be as afraid of this aspect of getting off opiates.
I know I won't be able to play for awhile. My biggest W/D and PAWS enemy is anxiety as even before I got wrapped up in opiates 10 years ago I had generalized anxiety issues. I never went for meds for anxiety back then because the opiates were taking care of that better than anything I'd ever tried. Like a lot of people I entered the opiate world because of bad discs, of course in hindsight I now know I could and should have learned to live with it. Thus; I'm basically a junkie now.
I'm going to power through this first 6 weeks or so in hope that the physical issues of WD will be well behind me. Even waking up and not looking for a fix will seem like a victory.
My main worry is ever being able to play my instrument again. I'm mainly a bassist, a damn good one as it's one of the few things I can actually boast about. I also write and collaborate with like 4 different groups. Some even are signed to labels. In the ensuing PAWS I have this fear that my hands will no longer be steady and by brain won't relax enough to be successful.
I'm so scared because while it can be a bit of a business and grind at times, it is what makes me truly happy. No music making = unhappy. Unhappy = virtual death.
Any thoughts? Anyone been in or is in a similar situation?
If I was a federal employee like I once was, I wouldn't nearly be as afraid of this aspect of getting off opiates.
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