I know I have anxiety problems, I'm seeing a therapist about it, and it has gotten a lot better. We figured out that it is moderate to severe anxiety. Mostly social anxiety but also generalized anxiety.
I was going to a club the other day, my favourite club, and a relatively famous DJ was going to be there. He posted a status about where was playing this weekend so I made a comment saying something like "woohoo! can't wait for [club I was going to]". Anyway, he ended up messaging me saying "hey, see you at [the club] ... come say hello
". Then we chatted a bit, like he asked me where I'm from, etc. He asked who I was going with. (I didn't know if that also meant asking if I had a boyfriend.) I wasn't sure WHY he was messaging me. I mean, he has a gazillion fans (he has so many FB friends that he can't add anyone else). So I was wondering if maybe he was just looking for someone to sleep with? (A lot of guys at that club are always asking that ... well a lot of guys in general are.) So I'm not sure. It was all through facebook messaging too.
Anyway, I left to go to another party, and then I went to that club where he was playing. I was still unsure why he was messaging me and I wasn't sure if I would say hi to him or not. I wanted to - I mean it would be soooo cool to meet him!!! (He's such an awesome DJ!) But I just got worried. Would he know who I was? Did he just want to sleep with me aka ignore me since I was with my boyfriend? When I got home after the party, I saw that he asked for my cell number too. Urg.
But anyway, I completely wimped out!! I listened to his set (which was incredible BTW) and then just left! I mean, I was going to head out when his set was done anyway (11:30 AM is a bit late to still be partying lol). But I wanted to say hi! I wanted to say "hey, I met this guy". But I didn't. Ugh. I was just so nervous about it! Now I keep obsessing over what I DIDN'T do. I wish I wasn't like this!!!!!!!! I wish I had taken the opportunity. Maybe next time he's in the city but that probably won't be for a few months at least.
I was going to a club the other day, my favourite club, and a relatively famous DJ was going to be there. He posted a status about where was playing this weekend so I made a comment saying something like "woohoo! can't wait for [club I was going to]". Anyway, he ended up messaging me saying "hey, see you at [the club] ... come say hello
". Then we chatted a bit, like he asked me where I'm from, etc. He asked who I was going with. (I didn't know if that also meant asking if I had a boyfriend.) I wasn't sure WHY he was messaging me. I mean, he has a gazillion fans (he has so many FB friends that he can't add anyone else). So I was wondering if maybe he was just looking for someone to sleep with? (A lot of guys at that club are always asking that ... well a lot of guys in general are.) So I'm not sure. It was all through facebook messaging too.Anyway, I left to go to another party, and then I went to that club where he was playing. I was still unsure why he was messaging me and I wasn't sure if I would say hi to him or not. I wanted to - I mean it would be soooo cool to meet him!!! (He's such an awesome DJ!) But I just got worried. Would he know who I was? Did he just want to sleep with me aka ignore me since I was with my boyfriend? When I got home after the party, I saw that he asked for my cell number too. Urg.
But anyway, I completely wimped out!! I listened to his set (which was incredible BTW) and then just left! I mean, I was going to head out when his set was done anyway (11:30 AM is a bit late to still be partying lol). But I wanted to say hi! I wanted to say "hey, I met this guy". But I didn't. Ugh. I was just so nervous about it! Now I keep obsessing over what I DIDN'T do. I wish I wasn't like this!!!!!!!! I wish I had taken the opportunity. Maybe next time he's in the city but that probably won't be for a few months at least.