antisocial ranting

one of my really good friends recently moved to seattle and is crashing with me and farhad till he gets a job. which i was really excited for but now its all getting on my nerves. i pretty much demanded that he and farhad leave tonight so i could have some peace and quiet and focus on my homework. it was that or i was going to get a hotel room for the weekend.

i get really, really cranky when i do not have time to myself. i need time to gather my thoughts and sort thru them with no distractions. and its really tiring spending all your waking moments around other people who are wanting stuff from you.

i like to be alone at times and can't stand when people are being all clingy and looking to me as their only source for things. its draining to not only keep myself amused but be the thing that keeps my friends sane/happy too.

i'm rather selfish in my views, my wants come before theirs and i want to be unsocial more than they want other stuff. i know this makes me a horrid roommate and prolly an annoying friend. i am really thankful that my friends still like me.

i also realize this entry is rather disjointed, but i wanted to type out some random things for the sake of writing. i could have written tons more about what inspired each thought but airing too much dirty laundry on here would be a very bad thing (in part because both people mentioned in this post might read it)

 

Don't feel selfish about that. While I enjoy being around other people, I need a fair bit of 'me' time too. You're doing your friend a favour by letting him stay there, and I don't think that it's too much to ask to have a bit of peace, quiet and solitude for a couple of hours. Especially if you have work to do.

Why should your needs come second to anyone else's? You can't always get what you want, but you should get your way sometimes.

Also, +1 on the 'people mentioned might read it' bit. Blogs can be useful in so many ways!

 

Yeah I was contemplating commenting on this for a few days now since I am one of the people mentioned who might read this (it is also interesting to see myself named). I guess I finally decided to do so. You know I never mind if you need alone time or anything like that. As you saw when you asked me to take him out somewhere that I will and don't care to much one way or the other.

I do admit that I am pretty boring and will just sit in the apartment doing nothing most of the time. This does make it then difficult for us to not spend lots of time together as it will usually mean we both are at the apartment doing nothing. You should try not to view this as me being clingy though as its more for the reasons I stated instead.For what its worth, I am clingy but that is an entirely different story.

Anyway, feel free to vent any time you want either in person or online. You know you will get the free time you want anytime you need/desire it. I want you to enjoy living here as much as possible so don't be afraid to let me know of things.

 

well thank you

its more the other one in our apartment that eats all my food, bounces around like an idiot, fucks up my computer with porn, like horrid music and shitty tv and drinks constantly that is getting on my nerves. that one needs to write a resume and get a job or learn how to look up temp agencies in a phone book before i kill him.