Gaz_hmmmm
Bluelighter
Is there any point using anti-depressant, I'm referring to shitty SSRI's, when ultimately you know it's your environment that's making you suicidal?
I honestly think the future of our species will be determined this Century. I think some will survive as long as no one has a nuclear war (For those that don't know, if India and Pakistan were to nuke each other not only would it be suicide for them but enough radioactive dust would be thrown into the atmosphere that the Sun would be blocked out for 2 years, so crops would fail and other people/Countries would if they had the resources take advantage of the chaos, that's if the other Countries with nukes didn't panic and launch.)
It's not only that but it's being treated like a 2nd class citizen because I'm opioid dependent and also family situation, money problems and the environment/climate change.
The German army (It wasn't the full report/plan and didn't mentionany of the military plans but Der Spiegel got hold of an early unfinished/or censored version.) is planning for another European war between 2010 and 2025 because of peak oil. The UK Govt' is apparently too but no one is saying jack and nothing's been leaked.
Then there's the fact that central banks are buying Gold again but printing loads of money. The dollar is going to crash and burn.
I think of all of this and think "Do I want to see this happen and live in a place where I'd have to probably have to behave inhumanely to survive?", the answer is no.
I do think sometimes I should carry on and when it happens I can kill myself then. I've already decided not to have kids and the last girl I was with the situation just turned into a shit storm of lies and she got raped by someone, she was already emotionally screwed but that really fucked the situation up and it ended.
I don't talk to my family, we just co-exist and even that (My family) has gone to shit in the last few weeks.
Every 'best' friend I've had has moved on, I know I'm a loner and an introvert. But it'd be nice if my so called friends would actually listen to me and let me get shit off my chest instead of being their fucking counsellor when ever.
I honestly think the future of our species will be determined this Century. I think some will survive as long as no one has a nuclear war (For those that don't know, if India and Pakistan were to nuke each other not only would it be suicide for them but enough radioactive dust would be thrown into the atmosphere that the Sun would be blocked out for 2 years, so crops would fail and other people/Countries would if they had the resources take advantage of the chaos, that's if the other Countries with nukes didn't panic and launch.)
It's not only that but it's being treated like a 2nd class citizen because I'm opioid dependent and also family situation, money problems and the environment/climate change.
The German army (It wasn't the full report/plan and didn't mentionany of the military plans but Der Spiegel got hold of an early unfinished/or censored version.) is planning for another European war between 2010 and 2025 because of peak oil. The UK Govt' is apparently too but no one is saying jack and nothing's been leaked.
Then there's the fact that central banks are buying Gold again but printing loads of money. The dollar is going to crash and burn.
I think of all of this and think "Do I want to see this happen and live in a place where I'd have to probably have to behave inhumanely to survive?", the answer is no.
I do think sometimes I should carry on and when it happens I can kill myself then. I've already decided not to have kids and the last girl I was with the situation just turned into a shit storm of lies and she got raped by someone, she was already emotionally screwed but that really fucked the situation up and it ended.
I don't talk to my family, we just co-exist and even that (My family) has gone to shit in the last few weeks.
Every 'best' friend I've had has moved on, I know I'm a loner and an introvert. But it'd be nice if my so called friends would actually listen to me and let me get shit off my chest instead of being their fucking counsellor when ever.