and its cold and its january

[beanpoophead]

And I was just so beautiful
only one year ago
look at my innocence
look at how it shined
and I smiled a million times

then it all came
and then it all went
I let go of love’s precious lust
tuned in, tuned out
captured my dreams in dimebags
and let lust take control of what was

now im watching my life go past
it just moves so fast
I hurt you, me, her, him
I broke my heartbreak
and made into smoke
inhaled, exhaled...

Cos here I am
a little girl, all grown up
and I can’t see past my nose
or the addiction
I never really gave up
cos I was always hiding behind
a tomorrow or the next day after

and if you only knew me now
if only you could see how much
different I am now
how strong I’ve become
how much your words don’t hurt me
and how hard im trying to not die
with all the chemicals that are now
blinding my blue eyes

and its cold and its January
and your not here
cos im searching for something
to wrap around my naked body
so I can leave without anyone hearing
me...
As I shut the front door

 

[HotRails]

Damn I hate this weather, I step outside to start the oll truck and I freeze me knickers off.

 

[FaerieBum]

Cos here I am
a little girl, all grown up
and I can’t see past my nose
or the addiction
I never really gave up
cos I was always hiding behind
a tomorrow or the next day after

i totally identify with that...awesome poem

 

[RareForm]

thanks for sharing.

 

[KaNdii kiSses]

and if you only knew me now
if only you could see how much
different I am now
how strong I’ve become
how much your words don’t hurt me
and how hard im trying to not die
with all the chemicals that are now
blinding my blue eyes

I loved this poem... you are an amazing writer, and I enjoy all of your work.

 

[on the road]

I can relate to everything you wrote. A lot can happen in a year. A year ago I was an addict, writing wistefull poetry alone in a cold corner and now...well I simply cant write poetry without pain.

What i'm trying to say PoopHead, is that it's a New Year Baby! What will you be writing next year?

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

Wonderful raw & gritty stuff as always!

I never really gave up
cos I was always hiding behind
a tomorrow or the next day after

 

[beanpoophead]

What i'm trying to say PoopHead, is that it's a New Year Baby! What will you be writing next year?

ive asked myself that very same question

and if im happy in a year, maybe i wont write at all?