am just sad, cant stop crying in my bed, what should I do?

[Dr Mamba]

There is no reason for that, am just sad, I take antidepressant (prozac) and anxyolytique (mild benzo) from my doctor, but that's a week and just nothing change an inch.
Cant do anything, dont want to do anything, i'd better be dead but i dont want to make my familly and freinds sad, when you have tuberculosis, you donc go and kiss all the people you love, you just dont want them to get from you your illness.
To day i just thought I could try some drug to numb my pain, but I guess anything I think of would make it worst.
Cannabis would make me anxious, I would do a bad trip of psychedeliques, extasy would be the cure, but for what, 3-4 hours and then it would be worst depression ever, just the think i dont want, I tried stim, they dont do anything, yes, the power to make that post, nice, but spaming forum is not a cure for anything.
Ketamine make me sleep/hole, but its shorts and there is a long time that I dont got this "anti depression afterglow" anymore, I just wake up and feel as depress as before, so I dont get the point.
prozac dont do anything, I almost done a serotoninergique syndrome last time, but stoping depression, not a chance, benzo make me sleep instead of resting in bed crying, nice change, i just stay in bed cluless, with or without them.
I'm sure there is a bunch of depress or ex-depressed people here, please, what did you do to get better?
I cant stand watching film, listening musique, it's juste like watching white walls or listening random enoying noise.
I'm just sad, lying days in my bed, crying, clueless.

Thanks from any advice, please tell me what have work for you, any little thing/idear would be so welcome.
Sorry for that post, I told that to freind, familly, doctor, but there is not other result than anoying them and make them sorry for me, and that make me more full of shame to hurt others.

Thanks for any little idear.

 

[kris66]

There is no reason for that, am just sad, I take antidepressant (prozac) and anxyolytique (mild benzo) from my doctor, but that's a week and just nothing change an inch.
Cant do anything, dont want to do anything, i'd better be dead but i dont want to make my familly and freinds sad, when you have tuberculosis, you donc go and kiss all the people you love, you just dont want them to get from you your illness.
To day i just thought I could try some drug to numb my pain, but I guess anything I think of would make it worst.
Cannabis would make me anxious, I would do a bad trip of psychedeliques, extasy would be the cure, but for what, 3-4 hours and then it would be worst depression ever, just the think i dont want, I tried stim, they dont do anything, yes, the power to make that post, nice, but spaming forum is not a cure for anything.
Ketamine make me sleep/hole, but its shorts and there is a long time that I dont got this "anti depression afterglow" anymore, I just wake up and feel as depress as before, so I dont get the point.
prozac dont do anything, I almost done a serotoninergique syndrome last time, but stoping depression, not a chance, benzo make me sleep instead of resting in bed crying, nice change, i just stay in bed cluless, with or without them.
I'm sure there is a bunch of depress or ex-depressed people here, please, what did you do to get better?
I cant stand watching film, listening musique, it's juste like watching white walls or listening random enoying noise.
I'm just sad, lying days in my bed, crying, clueless.

Thanks from any advice, please tell me what have work for you, any little thing/idear would be so welcome.
Sorry for that post, I told that to freind, familly, doctor, but there is not other result than anoying them and make them sorry for me, and that make me more full of shame to hurt others.

Thanks for any little idear.

I'm sorry you are going through this right now. I'm the same way if Im having a hard time mentally and I try to think of some substance that might help me. I get migraines from alchohol and I can't handle thc at all.

For me what helps is to try to find any thought that makes me feel better and try to expand on it. If I'm laying in bed and start feeling depressed I find I have to force myself out of bed. Get up and take a shower, then find something to do. If you are able to, go outside and walk. Believe me I know it's the last thing you really want to do but it does help put you in a different mindset.

Sending you good thoughts.

 

[paranoid android]

Have you tried s ketamine? It is far better of a antidepressant and anesthetic then r ket. I dont normally get depression but ever since i took s ket the summer i feel better then ever. I would look into it if i where you.

Are you just not the type for psychedelics? Shrooms work great for your mood but some people just cant handle psychedelics. However having trip killers on hands that work fast such as xanax, bromazepam or even a z drug might be enough to keep your anxiety at bay. I like to have trip killers on hand when i trip just in case things go bad.

I also recommend taking up exercising when you can. My mood has been fantastic since i started lifting weights about a year an a half ago