Bomb319
Bluelighter
Methadone MAINTENANCE that is.I am on 200 mg daily, and have been in the program since January. If I take my daily dose in the morning on an empty stomach and preferely after using antacids, I still get a strong and highly pleasurable and euphoric buzz. It creeps up slowly about 30-45 min after dosing, and in roughly an hour it peaks to a fairly intense and solid opiate high, warmth and relaxation. This feeling for me lasts at least a few hours, becomes relatively unnoticeable when I'm out and about during the day, but returns at night while in bed - particularly if I take Benadrly to help me sleep. This is certainly not placebo as the effects are much too strong, my pupils are pinpoint etc. and as an 8 year veteran opiate user, I know what every opiate feels like.
It's this above all else that keeps me clean and makes my MMT so successful. I've tried to use heroin (IV) many times while on this dose to see if I would feel it or break through it. Of course its almost impossible. I refuse to be careless, so I will only ever try up to a quarter at once of new stuff, but I have had access to the best and most pure, and the most it does for me is make me feel a slight to moderate rush, then fade imperceptibly into the background. It even seems to precipitate some form of mild withdrawal, as my pupils actually become BIGGER! So any heroin use for me now is a monumental waste of cash, and does more harm than good since I withdraw earlier the following day.
But even in my early days where I had little to no tolerance, a shot of good dope would have me in bliss of course, but the odd thing is, the feeling I get NOW on MAINTENANCE comes very close to rivaling this and in fact is superior in many ways (slow but strong come-up, much longer lasting, no need to IV, and a definite powerful sense of euphoria). I've just never heard of maintenance dosing doing that for anyone so I'm wondering what could be causing this. I am a fast metabolizer, and can definitely begin yawning and sneezing 24 hours after my last dose. I know everyone says that MMT is to make you feel "normal" not high, but the reason I'm posting this is because this presents a curious situation for me:
I badly wanted and needed to quit opiates, and methadone has been extremely successful in doing that for me - a feat I thought I would never be able to do. But the fact that I'm getting high from it and it isn't fading even after 6 months shows that I'm still enjoying the high, making it into more of the wrong reasons for using. That said, I've gotten my life back - family and friends, money, a full time job where I'm being praised by everyone for my hard work, no more association with criminal activity. In other words, everything methadone is supposed to do. It's saved my life, but in a way that seems different from the experience of others. I know 200 mg is a very high dose, but again I've been on it for months and I have no reduction of euphoria. I was quite a heavy heroin user before treatment of course, or I would never have been prescribed such a high dose. Has anyone else experienced this, and any advice on how this may impact my treatment?
It's this above all else that keeps me clean and makes my MMT so successful. I've tried to use heroin (IV) many times while on this dose to see if I would feel it or break through it. Of course its almost impossible. I refuse to be careless, so I will only ever try up to a quarter at once of new stuff, but I have had access to the best and most pure, and the most it does for me is make me feel a slight to moderate rush, then fade imperceptibly into the background. It even seems to precipitate some form of mild withdrawal, as my pupils actually become BIGGER! So any heroin use for me now is a monumental waste of cash, and does more harm than good since I withdraw earlier the following day.
But even in my early days where I had little to no tolerance, a shot of good dope would have me in bliss of course, but the odd thing is, the feeling I get NOW on MAINTENANCE comes very close to rivaling this and in fact is superior in many ways (slow but strong come-up, much longer lasting, no need to IV, and a definite powerful sense of euphoria). I've just never heard of maintenance dosing doing that for anyone so I'm wondering what could be causing this. I am a fast metabolizer, and can definitely begin yawning and sneezing 24 hours after my last dose. I know everyone says that MMT is to make you feel "normal" not high, but the reason I'm posting this is because this presents a curious situation for me:
I badly wanted and needed to quit opiates, and methadone has been extremely successful in doing that for me - a feat I thought I would never be able to do. But the fact that I'm getting high from it and it isn't fading even after 6 months shows that I'm still enjoying the high, making it into more of the wrong reasons for using. That said, I've gotten my life back - family and friends, money, a full time job where I'm being praised by everyone for my hard work, no more association with criminal activity. In other words, everything methadone is supposed to do. It's saved my life, but in a way that seems different from the experience of others. I know 200 mg is a very high dose, but again I've been on it for months and I have no reduction of euphoria. I was quite a heavy heroin user before treatment of course, or I would never have been prescribed such a high dose. Has anyone else experienced this, and any advice on how this may impact my treatment?
just me though also. The problem with H is some dood on the corner of the street gets it for you. M is a pharm = you know what your getting and it works every time
