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am i the only one addicted to GETTING high?

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chaos32

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I find that once I am high, I no longer want to be, I just want to smoke and smoke. Shooting is a good high, but isn't as fullfilling as smoking a bowl of meth and blowing a huge white cloud, or chasing that black line of heroin, even coke, (which i feel gets me less high when i make pasties) I can't help but mix up and smoke.


Just wondering if anyone feels the same? Guess I need to just go out and buy a bottle of msm and smoke that away and I wouldnt have to worry about the meth side effects.
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Thoughts?
 
poppywonderland said:
Your certainly not alone.
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+1

Smoking dope is just as, if not more, addictive as the dope itself.
If I've got something to stave off withdrawals I'll still not feel right as I just want to go through the experience of trickling that liquid down the foil and feel the vapour run down my airway into my lungs.

It's the very same reason I've been unable to quit smoking cigs. The feeling of the smoke being drawn in is as much a part of the addiction as the Nicotine itself.
 
This is such an interesting question.

When I look back on my days of injecting drugs the adrenalin began to kick in while I was on my way to get the substance. By the time I finished the ritual of preparing the shot I was naturally jacked up, heart racing, hands shaking, sweating, and stomach churning.

The actions required to achieve that euphoric blast will be, for me, forever associated with the outcome itself. Much like Pavlov's dogs, I had mentally conditioned myself with the repeated ritual of drug use so that my body anticipated the reaction and responded beforehand.

And, being creatures of habit, people want to relive that feeling, that rush of adrenalin associated with using, over and over again. I find myself wondering at times if I am in love with getting high or if I love the idea of it. After all, the idea is where it starts.
 
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There will be some times - especially on a day after I've smoked salvia - that I'll be so pissed off that I need to go smoke some buds asap. Once I have the means to do it and I'm about to go on a j walk or whatever, I'll already feel a lot better, especially when I get high. On some days, it'll just be so bad that I'll need to smoke some buds just to relax and not be so angry. So I think my dependence is more psychological than it is physical.
 
I can definately relate to this...i love doing lines (as long as it's not something cut to fuck that feels like snorting acid..). Even with pills..I'd much rather crush it up and rack up some lines than pop it in my mouth..and not just for the practical reason of quicker onset etc. With cigarettes & joints too..I like rolling them...I like the taste of weed but not really the sensation anymore.
 
Draigan said:
The ritual of needling haunts me in my day dreams constantly. I WISH IT WOULD MOTHERFUCKING GO AWAY!!! =)
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It haunts me when I dream at night as well. I'll have a dream about getting a paycheck and scoring mad bricks and I'll wake up thinking "what have I done!?" and then I realize I was just dreaming. Fucking evil :\


But yes, The act of getting/doing drugs is quite addictive. I'm sure many of us have or know someone that has a needle fixation or even a snorting/smoking fixation.
 
I'm pretty addicted to snorting. If I can sniff a drug, ill do it over any other route of administration. I was thinking about something similar to this thread earlier.

I am addicted to altered states, Not just one drug, but any drug. I am addicted to psychoactive substances as a whole.
 
chaos32 said:
I find that once I am high, I no longer want to be, I just want to smoke and smoke. Shooting is a good high, but isn't as fullfilling as smoking a bowl of meth and blowing a huge white cloud, or chasing that black line of heroin, even coke, (which i feel gets me less high when i make pasties) I can't help but mix up and smoke.


Just wondering if anyone feels the same? Guess I need to just go out and buy a bottle of msm and smoke that away and I wouldnt have to worry about the meth side effects.
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Thoughts?
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I know what ya mean, and I often feel the same way. Not only am I addicted to meth, but I'm addicted to the whole ritual of smoking it through the glass pipe... watching the smoke billowing inside the bowl as I hold the flame underneath, breathing it in, the exhaling a big white cloud.
 
The ritual is what gets me. I love driving down to the hood and taking a walk thru the bad parts of my city knowing I'm about to cop some coke or dope. Once I safely make it back home (which is an adrenaline rush by itself; not getting caught) is the funner part. Stirring it all up in a spoon and putting it into my needle. The best part I find is sticking the needle in and seeing that splash of blood come back once I hit a vein. That and the immediate rush after putting it in are the only reason I do it.
 
Ah yes , the 'Ritual' and 'Initial Rush' side of the addiction subject. The Getting high as opposed to the Being high. I can relate.

I most noticed this with the bongs for many many years ... I always liked the initial Chest/Head hit and although loved being stoned I actually craved this hit more than anything and so ended up smoking a shitload of cones regularly ... and I was certainly not alone in this. %) Cannabis isn't even physically addictive (altho the bacco in the cones is) but we sure did crave our bong hits and I know I still do but am much more moderate these days and stopped mixing tobacco with the bud so there is not quite the same cravings anymore.
The ritual of 'scoring' and getting home and preparing and chopping up etc was also part of the thrill too , always more exciting after a successful hunt than if you just had bags of the stuff already lying around. :)

And I've found this with other drugs too ... Obviously shooting heroin has a pretty addictive rush and that was a major part of it for me but I also very much enjoyed the lingering sedation , luckily never got hooked.

Even the bloody cigarettes have got me , like it's more the act of inhaling/exhaling smoke that I crave than the actual effects from tobacco , which for me is basically nothing except I guess feeding the nicotine receptors.
Kind of annoying really because my lungs can't take as much smoke as I'd be quite willing to give them ... If I weren't worried they are the main thing that's gonna kill me , or didn't care then I'd no doubt be a total chain-smoker. Scary. 8(

I've never tried meth or Coke but I can certainly imagine the rush would be intense , well sought after and quite addicting no doubt. I will probably try one day but just as an experience ... I can't afford to be hooked on anything else.

Anyway , Cheers and all the best everyone ... good luck.
 
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