Mental Health Am I abusing Adderall?

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Ok so here's my story: Since high school I have suffered from anxiety and some depression. I am 25 now. My anxiety is triggered by most social interactions. In high school I would hide in the bathroom sometimes because i couldn't face going to class or go to the library during lunch sometimes so I wouldn't have to interact socially. I dropped out of college because my anxiety kept me from going to class and giving presentations or just because I was afraid to be in class with so many strangers. I can't get a job because I feel an overwhelming panic at going to interviews or starting new working with people I don't know. I have no motivation to do anything during the day. I can't focus on tasks im supposed to do and easily get overwhelmed by large projects. I have been put on various anti anxiety meds anti depressants. None of them worked they only made my depression worse and made me feel more sluggish and non motivated. Two months ago I tried a 15 mg Adderall xr pill. It did wonders for me. I have been taking it on and off for the last two months. It gives me motivation and takes away my anxiety. I have gone for two interviews. I feel like I can interact with people better. I know this drug has a high possibility of abuse. I have not ever taken more then the 15mg. I can skip days without it. I don't feel that I am getting euphoria off it. More so that a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and it allows me to think more positive rather then negative. Helps me focus on large tasks that would have sent me spiraling into panic before. Helps me stay focused and organized so I can complete things that I start. I guess my question is am I taking this for the wrong reason? I'm not diagnosed with ADD but this has been the only thing to ever make me feel normal. I have no history of substance abuse I should add.
 
You didn't say if you are getting Adderall prescribed or from other sources. (only that other meds were not helping you) If you feel that they are helping you, perhaps speak to your physician and don't go over the recommended dose.

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I would not say that youre abusing it, but i think that the possibility for abuse is most absolutely there, so please be careful. I think you should talk to your doctor about getting a prescription if it works so well for you. Even vyvanse might help just as well with a lower possibility of abuse.
 
Doesn't sound good from the way you wrote it.

The effects you're describing don't last. If you keep on doing this regularly I can just about guarantee you that your anxiety will become worse than before and that you won't be able to get much done without adderall.

It's hard to believe you've tried all kinds of antidepressants for a realistic time period.
 
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