Always There

[CoffeeDrinker]

Always There​

-Driving home at night again
out trying to find my best friend
the friend that never was
My phone has a message to send
that I have not yet sent
But of all the choices I make
Why does my life feel so fake?
like all of the bad shit isn't real?
It's all about just how I feel
Medicate myself a million times
Pretend to clear cobwebs from my Mind
but all I really am is High
So I just smile until it goes *drum fill*
by
But I know deep down
it's always there
The trees flash red disappointment at me
like blue is all I'll ever be

Now I try and seek approval...
*unknown modulation*
ellipses are so passive aggressive :D

This song is in the key of F Lydian btw

 

[crazynate:]]

I like it, totally shows the emotions of a person truely lost. I used to feel this way but learned to just enjoy those around me instead of worrying about everyone I wanted to impress... Keep it up coffeedrinker

 

[CoffeeDrinker]

I was so high when I wrote that it almost makes me cry when I read it now that I am sober(or at least not high). The title and all the lyrics just came out in one fluid rush literally a few minutes before I decided to post it. It started out as an instrumental. I have the riff for it recorded with my laptop mic. I haven't decided the key of that modulation yet. That was just my musical sense of humor.
Thank you for really looking at it. It means a lot to me that you took the time to analyze it. Not that it requires much.
That last line was a quote by this one crazy friend of mine from my biology class who always makes me laugh and I wish I knew him closer because he doesn't do drugs and I never hang out with him.