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myles p said:
fI'm looking at some AA meetings in my area but I'm a little bit confused. Most of them say closed. Does this mean I have to be a member and gone through rehab or something?

I have also heard that smoking crack once can fuck up one's brain chemistry. Is there any truth to this? Will this anxiety subside?
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"closed" means for alcoholics ONLY ie. no court appointed knuckleheads or visitors. for you to be a "member", you have to simply delcare that your are an alcoholic.

re: crack- sounds like rubbish to me. imo, its all in your head. relax, learn from and move past your indiscretions.


btw, good luck with AA. remember that they preach total sobriety since you are incapable of controlling yourself.
 
thanks mate, im giving it one more shot myself I think. I'm going to the bank tommorrow and telling them to reduce my credit limit, so i wont be able to live the lifestyle I have been living.

I'm making a point of taking early classes and working early shifts and I'm just going to throw myself into that.

I need to distance myself from some people for a while because if I'm at a party or a pub it is impossible to not drink. Joining a gym tommorrow as I used to love working out when I wasn't hungover all the time.

This time it is real and I'm going to give it my all.

edit: its wierd but all of a sudden I feel excited and hopeful. The monkey is off my fucking back!
 
Nevermind, it's back to illicits for SF .. That'll keep me off the juice!
 
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myles p said:
thanks mate, im giving it one more shot myself I think. I'm going to the bank tommorrow and telling them to reduce my credit limit, so i wont be able to live the lifestyle I have been living.

I'm making a point of taking early classes and working early shifts and I'm just going to throw myself into that.

I need to distance myself from some people for a while because if I'm at a party or a pub it is impossible to not drink. Joining a gym tommorrow as I used to love working out when I wasn't hungover all the time.

This time it is real and I'm going to give it my all.

edit: its wierd but all of a sudden I feel excited and hopeful. The monkey is off my fucking back!
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thats good- sort yourself out. but remember that we as a species are not infallible. its not about how we fall down, its about how we get up and dust ourselves off. days come in cycles of 24 hours. if after a bad day, look forward to the next new one.. :)
 
im off drugs, but now im drinking 1-2 bottles of wine a night by myself
this is not good.
but it's helping me not use which I guess is more important
 
shined off a btl of vodka my self, so far, i wish to could feel the same as mynamesND.

but its hard out here you know?

i guess i/we dont have to wish, just do it.

more power to us!
 
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claire22 said:
im off drugs, but now im drinking 1-2 bottles of wine a night by myself
this is not good.
but it's helping me not use which I guess is more important
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Yes I think it's more important for now. But the ultimate goal should be to not be addicted to anything, to know how to cope without drugs or alcohol.
But focus on one thing at a time hun :)
<3

panic in paradise said:
we dont have to wish, just do it.
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QFE
 
2008 was my time to catch up on my lack of drinking....(my ex didn't want me drinking...for no real reason, we always had a great time drinking, she was just a bitch...)....and I more than made up for it.

This time a year ago, I was either putting down a 30 rack over the the course of 8-9 hours (by myself) or splitting a half gallon of Captain Morgan with my roommate, which....we have killed in a single night many-a-nights.

It got to the point where everyone went to bed and I'd be sitting here in my room behind my computer just getting annihilated, for no real reason. Blacking out was how I went to bed for more than half of last year.

After a few months of that, I decided to cut waaay back. Didn't really have much of an issue, I just got sick of spending $20 a day on a half gallon of Captain. I never got hangovers, so that wasn't an issue, it simply got boring to me.

It's been a few months now that I've cut back. Instead of every night, I'll drink 2-3 nights out of the week and I won't get sloshed, just maintain a buzz. The holidays were pretty crazy though....from Christmas straight through New Year's day I was pretty much wasted the entire time....but that's over and I'm chillin' again.

Now I have to help my roommate/best friend of 15 years out....he hasn't gone more than a day or so without getting hammered in a looong time. He's gained about 75lbs. in the past 4 years from drinking. I figured me cutting back would stop him....but it hasn't happened yet.
 
^^ Rev that's great you're able to cut down when it's appropriate.
Does your roommate WANT to cut down drinking?? Does he take any active measures to stop drinking?
It has to come from within him.
 
I'm nearing the end of my 2nd day of not drinking.
And I am really really really not coping.
I'm trying to justify drinking with every single preposterous reason/excuse in the book.
I just want something, anything, pills, weed, whatever, just to knock me out so I can wake up tomorrow and be able to say that I've made it another day.

.....but that kinda defeats the whole purpose of sobriety huh...


:(
 
Yep, I never actually throw up from alcohol now, regardless of how much I drink. I guess it's just about tolerance?
 
I have drank now every single day since December 26th. So 12 days, probably averaging around 8 or 9 standard drinks per day, but a few days reaching the mid teens (and I'm not that big of a person). I guess it's a combination of the holidays, having several weeks free from any professional commitments and just trying to self-medicate. But ya, the past few days I definately have been waking up with a mental fog, the pins and needles feeling in my hands and feat, muscle pains, liver feeling swollen and an overall feeling of paranoia and anxiety. It's all just so stupid.

Now I've always been more prone to WD symtoms from alcohol than it seems like a lot others are, at least the physical ones. But these recent benders seem to have gotten a lot worse with respect to the physical tolls that they're taking on me. I need to stop this. So I am detoxing starting today (counting the hours, it's been 8 since my last drink, and I figure I want to make it to 100 before I'm smooth sailing). I'm loading up on vitamins and liquids, abstaining from caffeine, and just trying to stay busy. And hopefully catch some sleep.

This past year I learned a lot about just how poisonous alcohol can be, and ya this stuff definately is addictive and should be taken seriously, despite it being legal. In fact, the more I go through addictions with it, the more I laugh at how silly it is that it is legal (but that's a tangent)...

Anyway, today and tomorrow are really going to suck for me. But I need to do this.
 
^^ It sucks that you get such bad WD symptoms mate. Alcohol is really nasty for a lot of people and I agree with you on the whole legality of it (but that's another story!).

Best of luck with your 100 hours of not drinking. Hey, if you get to the 3rd day and you don't feel like drinking, don't drink. I make that mistake ALL the time when I take a few days off drinking. I get to the last day and I drink the next day whether I'm craving or not. So stupid 8)

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So I'm 3 full days sober and the withdrawls, shakes and anxiety have gone. Cravings are still there but I'm fighting them down. Went to the gym today and it felt great. Being sober is slowly coming back and I'm feeling refreshed, still there is one major problem left.

Sleeping is still terrible. First night it was to be expected, second I thought it would go away but it didn't. Last night was still bad, tossing and turning all night, waking up every 20 minutes, too hot or too cold. I have been taking melatonin each night but it hasn't been helping at all.

I'm tempted to go to the doctor, but I'm afraid I'll be given benzo's and I really don't want to switch one addiction for another. Is there anything that will help me sleep? I'm hoping the exercise I did today will help, but I'm not confident.

Anyone know how long it will take until I can sleep without having to drink two bottles of wine?
 
Congradulations I ope 3 dsy becomes 30 days for you, as there is nothing better than a break in the cycle especially if its hurting us or people we care for.

Unfortunately for a while, your sleep will be disturbed , thats when the ghost can come visiting you, to try and lure you back to the spirits.

stay strong and active and guess keep it in the moment
 
myles, that is great! Keep up the good work man, it can only get better from here.


I feel like such a hypocrite but, me = fail :(
I really don't care though.
Does that make it less or more of an epic fail??
 
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