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Alcoholic 4 sure/ but am I addict?

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Nope2opes

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I'm an alcoholic. By the age of 18 I was so bad even my crazy ass friends didn't want to hang with me.i was either going to fight some one or cry on em,it got bad. I believe that the acid trip I had when 15 set me up ALOT, but also was definitely in my genes. I had taken 14 hits of acid and ended up running the streets naked. Didn't stop tripping for weeks, was n the emergency room every week. It was horrible life changing experience. I really started to think that i had died and this was all fake.Alcohol made it bearable.
At age 20 after one year off alcohol I relapsed and drove truck over bridge on to the hill below. That night I went to my first meeting and stayed sober 7 years. I had the coolest dude for my sponsor. At 6 years I started to tell him I needed Paxil for anxiety and he said I would relapse. But I went and got anyway.one year later I did relapse
(sorry ill speed up now?)
So long story short, I stayed off booze and started taking benzos. For a while they gave me energy of all things. I loved it!!!!!! This was my new beer. From there I started smoking pot. Soon I started taking percocet. Holy shit I found my DOC!!!!!! Right now I'm on 7th day of opi withdrawal. Restless leg my worst symptom besides having absolutely no energy at all.
When I do use tho seems I keep it recreational. I never get really to strung out. I can take or leave speed, I like it, it just ain't the warm blanket that opis are. But when I take Percs or oxi or morphine I always keep my dose the same. I never took to much, I just am alwayssssss on it.i use on low enough end that I get the,"I love the world and I'm gonna work till midnight feeling" .i actually take them about how your script would say u could.i can't afford it and I'm barely keeping my house right now. But i work 7 days a week and have never let the opis interfere. No one suspects anything except the a.a. Crowd here in town. I mean I really keep it n check and I love it. But I can not endure withdrawal once a month and can't afford. So yup I think I'm an addict.
I guess what I'm getting at is what if drugs haven't caused me enough pain like alcohol did????this seems almost impossible. I always have 8 days clean!!!! Lmao oh baby what a life. This restless leg is horrible.
Sorry I know I rambled on. But seriously am I an addict? Why dont I ever move on to bangin h? Seems like I control good besides the withdrawal.
Please be cool, I'm fragile. Peace
This site kicks ass: when I'm n WD I stay on here four hrs a night
 
Well you seem to have been literally addicted to at least 3 classes of drugs so if that answers your question? As in your body's been physically dependent. So obviously yes.

Idk why you've never done heroin butt that's a good thing I would say. Especially in your situation with what they call an addictive tendencies, least/especially in regards to drugs.

8 days is certainly a good start to an abstinent life so props there. I think you should seek either professional help or maybe try a 12 step program again to address the mental aspects of all this. Again, that's if you were asking for personal advice; your question in all this is vague IMHO. It seems drugs/alcohol has negatively affected your life in a big way, and I can relate in some ways, but maybe not exactly when it comes to the chemical dependency part.

Good luck man :)
 
Hi, I understand how you feel. I did the same thing. I use to drink all the time then switched to opes, benzo's, whatever! I use to run out early though and have to deal with the withdrawal every month. Now I just stated taking the Paxil. How does the Paxil work? I hope it's ok. Anyway, congrat's on 8 (or more now) days clean and take care of yourself. I also had to deal with restless leg, that is horrible!!

Kim
 
Oh yes, I'd say you definitely sound like an addict. Multiple classes of drugs, heavy abuse, and withdrawals should be some very clear indicators. Once you've become hooked on anything (in your case alcohol) ANYTHING else you dapple in will be extremely easy to get hooked on. At least that is my experience.
 
OP, I don't think it's important right now to label yourself of being an addict, what's important is kicking these drugs off and staying clean and sober. Please do your best to lay off drugs and seek help if you have to. Goodluck :)
 
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