AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[PhriendOfMine]

You
Are more important than anything
This world is all about what
You want
Please do not bother asking me how my day was
You might actually begin to care
God forbid you worry about anything
other than yourself
***
I want to challange myself
Change myself
For me
I want to push myself to the limit
Physically
Emotionally
Mentally
I want to live
Be happy
Productive
Contribute
I want to make a difference
***
I'm sick of wallowing in your self-absorbed shadow
Walking in your shallow footsteps
Being the nameless trophy on your arm
I am REAL
I'm sick of never being good enough
"You're so pale."
"When you tan you get orange."
"Honey, you've put on a few pounds haven't you?"
And you always laugh
When I mention those comments
"KIND OF"
bother me
But don't worry
They only kind of tear me down
And kind of make me feel
FAT
UGLY
BENEATH YOU
NOT GOOD ENOUGH
Good enough for what?
For myself?
FOR YOU?!?!?!??
Who are you?
A lazy, arrogant, alcoholic, MAMAS BOY
Never had a real job in all of your 19 years,
and oh, you are so wise...
You are so special because you have had everything handed to you on a silver platter
And life is so easy for you
Do whatever you please
CHEAT
LIE
LIE
CHEAT
Everyone says it's okay
It's okay Baby
I will always love you
Everyone loves you
We all love you
All the girls want you
I love you
You've never had to worry about
the things that really matter
You are invincible
You know everything
You yell at me when I choose to drown my sorrows at the bottom of a bottle
I seldom do
Although I have so many
And you have few
But the bottom of the bottle
is where I always know to look
There I can always find you
Eventually
Everything you hate about me
I see in you
Still I stay
And I love
And
You
LIE
And
You
CHEAT
And I love...

 

[up all night]

This was really powerful....really touching....

 

[TiggerLuvsX]

Still I stay
And I love
And
You
LIE
And
You
CHEAT
And I love.
wow-that was a wonderful piece. Isn't is funny how people can treat us so bad, but yet we choose to stay? It never ceases to amaze me. I hope that either things get better with him or you realize that this isn't what you truly need. I know it is hard. This could be old or something made up, I don't know. If not I am here if you want to talk. you can e-mail me [email protected]

 

[Furnace]

excellent.