you're in a good place; now you can choose. opiates aren't going to disappear off the face of the planet, and some day in the future they will cross your path. withdrawal is tough, no doubt. so is addiction- and you won't have one without the other. if you're ok being strung out, then be ok with all that comes with it; if you're not, then choose a different path. sorry if it sounds like tough love, but i hate seeing people suffer when they hold the choice in their hand. i've made my choice, and i accept its consequences. good luck to you.