Hi I am in such a terrible place I don't know where to turn. Im a female iv heroin user from UK and I desperately need any help you can give.
I've been literally attempting to stop using every day for several months and my life has consisted of going into withdrawal for anywhere from 1 to 3 days and then using. Rinse and repeat. I have no friends and if my daughter finds out I'm using again I won't have a family either.
My heroin addiction started 5 years ago and ive had a few weeks clean here and there. I IV and currently do betwen 3 and 5 bags of crap gear. My habit used to be huge 20 bags plus 70ml methadone. I went to rehab and got off the methadone and I wouldn't wish that on anyone.
I have got 2 subutex tablets. I have read obsessively how to use them for quick detox but the info is so contradictory. Some people seem to think that using sub is just just postponing the withdrawals and others swear that a short sub detox works wonders.
Could someone please explain how a short sub detox works... if it isn't just a continuance of opiate use where the WD will start when I finish the sub, how is it different? Perhaps if I understand how it works I will be less fearful.
I am so completely paralysed with fear. Fear to keep using and fear of stopping. I used to be able to cold turkey with ease but the fear and anxiety are so bad. ZThe longest I went was 4 days a few weeks ago and I honesty thought I was going to have a heart attack my heart was beating so hard I didn't know what to do with myself. Is this normAl? I'm sure it didn't used to happen.
Im at more than rock bottom. My self pity sickens me and my life consists of reading about how to detox and lying in bed waiting to take subutex. But the fear and anxiety gets so bad I don't end up doing the subutex. Im scared I'll make things worse. This has to end because the next level down is losing my daughter (and new grandaughter) and ending up in a mental hospital.
Please. Anyone, I'd be so grateful for any help or support because I have no one in real life. Thanks.
I've been literally attempting to stop using every day for several months and my life has consisted of going into withdrawal for anywhere from 1 to 3 days and then using. Rinse and repeat. I have no friends and if my daughter finds out I'm using again I won't have a family either.
My heroin addiction started 5 years ago and ive had a few weeks clean here and there. I IV and currently do betwen 3 and 5 bags of crap gear. My habit used to be huge 20 bags plus 70ml methadone. I went to rehab and got off the methadone and I wouldn't wish that on anyone.
I have got 2 subutex tablets. I have read obsessively how to use them for quick detox but the info is so contradictory. Some people seem to think that using sub is just just postponing the withdrawals and others swear that a short sub detox works wonders.
Could someone please explain how a short sub detox works... if it isn't just a continuance of opiate use where the WD will start when I finish the sub, how is it different? Perhaps if I understand how it works I will be less fearful.
I am so completely paralysed with fear. Fear to keep using and fear of stopping. I used to be able to cold turkey with ease but the fear and anxiety are so bad. ZThe longest I went was 4 days a few weeks ago and I honesty thought I was going to have a heart attack my heart was beating so hard I didn't know what to do with myself. Is this normAl? I'm sure it didn't used to happen.
Im at more than rock bottom. My self pity sickens me and my life consists of reading about how to detox and lying in bed waiting to take subutex. But the fear and anxiety gets so bad I don't end up doing the subutex. Im scared I'll make things worse. This has to end because the next level down is losing my daughter (and new grandaughter) and ending up in a mental hospital.
Please. Anyone, I'd be so grateful for any help or support because I have no one in real life. Thanks.