areros18
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Sep 10, 2012
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Mourning the loss of my best friend hydro. Violently taken from me by the very Doctors that introduced us back in 2001. Not sure if I'm ready for all of this. Angry I've been forced into this. I'm 39 years old! I have no choice. I have about 1500 papaver somniferum seeds I purchased abroad sitting in a drawer. I will start them indoors once it cools down. It's been obscenely hot in Los Angeles, 100 degrees and its October!
Ill make tea once a month. I might pick up some hydros when I go camping or for my birthday. But I won't ever again take daily. I won't ever again depend on them to move. I should be happy. I guess I'm worried I won't know how to balance occasional use and full blown addiction. I AM a person of excess. I see in black white and red, poppy red.
Sometime next week I will see in grey. Boring, sad, disillusioned, boring grey.
(How would I start a blog from iPhone)
Ill make tea once a month. I might pick up some hydros when I go camping or for my birthday. But I won't ever again take daily. I won't ever again depend on them to move. I should be happy. I guess I'm worried I won't know how to balance occasional use and full blown addiction. I AM a person of excess. I see in black white and red, poppy red.
Sometime next week I will see in grey. Boring, sad, disillusioned, boring grey.
(How would I start a blog from iPhone)
